Had my first real day of work today. 2:30 - 9:00. Afterwards I came home and showered and ate some beet and sweet potato chips, then went for icecream and a chat with my new friend Jungjae.



Jungjae's Asian. He isn't 100% on par with his English, and he isn't as gorgeous as I remember thinking he was in 9th grade, but he's cute and funny, and very sweet. When he picked me up tonight we weren't 20 blocks away when he said, "so this is the first time we've ever really... talked." Which is the truth. We had Human Geography together two years ago, but he had just moved and was shy, and he was this beautiful Asian sophomore, and I couldn't work up the nerve to talk to him. So we both knew who eachother was, but we didn't talk until last night. He has to interview all the junior IB kids, and he thought I was one. I wasn't, but we started talking on Facebook (oh, the glory of the book) and decided to hang out tonight when I got off work. We talked about that for a bit, then were stopped at a light and he proceeded to say, "Well, this is kind of awkward." Ha. I love it when people admit to things being awkward. It makes things so much less awkward.


I'm not sure if I like him though.

"You were cute today. I should have told you that when I first saw you."

It's funny, how two years ago I would have killed for this guy, this elusive sophomore, whom Ksenia and I wrote notes with plans for jumping about, to say something like that to me.
Now, I'm not sure if it makes me feel good or sad or if I'm just so damn tired I can't think straight.


Maybe all of them?














Idk. It's funny, I'm doing such a good job of making friends this year. All the Aca Deca kids, and random people like Steven and Andrea and Jungjae. I'm proud of myself.



OHHHHH. I forgot. Andrea figured out that I like Steven, which is sad, because she's truly madly deeply in love with him but he has commitment issues. I don't expect anything to happen with Steven and me, but if it did, I don't think I could even be his friend. Andrea's so sweet. I wouldn't ever want to do anything to hurt her, even though we're not that close. Besides, the more I think about it, the less I want to actually date Steven. I'd like to just admire him from... not afar, but without crossing any lines. I like to flirt with him and look at him (a lot) and to get hugs from him, but I like all of the same things with other people, too. Why should I jeapordize my friendship with both of them just because he's cute, and a jerk, and that's the kind of guy I'm attracted to? Because I'm very attracted to jerks. It sucks...




I feel like I have more to write, like about Fernando and Aca Deca and work and my dad, but I'm so. damn. tired.


I hate this whole responsibility thing. It's pretty tiring.

Wow, that's a long time to work.

I gotta say, the thing about this guy being "beautiful" just cracks me up. I'm used to thinking asian guys are hideous and things I wouldn't touch with a twenty foot pole if someone paid me. :P
» randomjunk on 2008-09-06 01:00:08

I've never heard of it referred to as "Aca Deca" ever. Then again, it's been years since I was in that sort of thing so... things might have changed quite a bit since then.
» ranor on 2008-09-06 01:02:24

Eh, personal tastes also factor into it. And the new guy is actually white, which is why everyone knows he's new. :P
» randomjunk on 2008-09-06 03:26:06

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