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Coen Brothers' movies I need to see:
Blood Simple Miller's Crossing Barton Fink The Hudsucker Proxy The Big Lebowski O Brother, Where Art Thou? The Man Who Wasn't There Intolerable Cruelty The Ladykillers Burn After Reading A Serious Man Chuck Palahniuk Books I want to read and own:
Bold = own. Survivor Diary Haunted Rant Snuff Pygmy | well, my friends suck. Friday. 1.11.08 12:47 am Yashvi hooked up with John. It hurts. I don't have a group I belong to, and that hurts even more. Like, sometimes I'll realize that, and then I'll get really upset, but then I'll forget it and everything will be good for a while. Then I realize again, and I get even more upset. I hate cliques. But I want to belong to one so badly. My best friend is Amy. I can tell her probably anything in the world, but I don't belong with her. Every time I go over to her house, it's more stressed. It's weird. But I know why it's so stressed. It's because her house is no longer my second home. It's a different group of people's home now. I've been replaced. Not that we aren't still best friends. I just can't hang out with her when she's with them anymore. I don't fit in with their group. Stephen is a best friend of mine, but when he's with Jen, I feel wrong, dirty. Evan is just an asshole to me. Not to mention it's coupled up and I'm the fifth wheel. And it's like I cling to Amy when I'm with them, because I don't know what else to do, because I don't fit in with them. I don't get their inside jokes, I don't understand the things that make them all laugh together anymore. I don't have fun when I'm with them. This breaks my heart more than anything I can think of, because Amy and I used to be the people together who didn't belong. We would drift from lunch group to lunch group, but we would always be together. There was, I think, one day last year that we were both at school that she didn't eat with me. Maybe she got tired of me. Maybe I got tired of her, and pushed her away. But now I have no one to be alone with. And it scares the crap out of me. I'm not saying I'm alone. I have a million friends. I love all of them. I'm not some leper. I just. I need somewhere that I can belong. There's this girl we used to eat lunch with, named Sam. She's alright. She annoys me sometimes, and she went to a private school until highschool, so she's a bit socially inept. She chews with her mouth open and talks with food in it. She can be kind of bitchy. But God, that girl is the realest girl I know. She doesn't change herself to fit in. She fits herself in where ever, and she enjoys where she is. She is a real person, a real human being. She doesn't wear makeup, she doesn't straighten her hair. She doesn't change her beliefs or ideas for anyone. I wish I could be like her. 2 Comments. Hmm. As far as cliques are concerned, it's pretty hard to get in or out of them sometimes. If you're desperate the best way would be to find some other clique-less people to hang out with... or to form your own clique with. That's only if you want it though. » randomjunk on 2008-01-11 01:22:08 It is hard to get along when you have to fit in with the groups. I know how you feel, I keep distance from these people to keep myself from being hurt. That's how I ended up not having a life yet I want a group to hang out with. Well, I don't know what to tell you though I'm trying hang out with people more often because sometimes the loneliness is too hard to bear. » Nuttz on 2008-01-11 05:04:57
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