well

its weird...
how they can make the most mundane things
and turn them into a whole movie.




i cried really hard. through the whole thing.



im not a pretty cryer.


i had this dream last night, that ive been thinking about ever sense.


it was so simple.

so... typical.

something that actually could happen.
maybe not with that person, but with someone, sometime.

something that can happen.






seek ye not love or from you it will flee.

such a great line.

usually i can just think about that song
and ill get happier.



but i miss ol.

i was thinking about that.
maybe yesterday, maybe today, i dont know, its all run together.
i almost started crying.

i know what got me thinking about it too.
we drove by quiznos.



well, when i shadowed at lhs, we went to eat at quiznos.
so i start thinking about shadowing.
so then i think about how in seventh grade it was a shadow day, and i didnt have a shadow.
but i had theater with 9th graders, and they had to take a lunch instead of c lunch because it was a shadow day.
i had a huge crush on this 9th grader in my theater class, bryan, and the lunch lines were massive, and he gets stuck, right by my table.
and he starts talking to me.
about shadowing.
and of course im blushing profusely, and when he leaves wendy bursts out laughing.

so i was thinking [today] about that, and how now im a freshman, and if they hadnt changed up the whole system, would a seventh grader have a crush on me?

well, last year jake did, and he was a year younger than me.

jake was in my theater class.

jake leads me to thinking about kash and aaron, whom i love and miss dearly, and havent seen since summer camp/before the last day of school.


and i want to cry.

not right now, but then i did.


and i miss john like no other and want to be with him and want to be able to cry on his shoulder even though i know i cant because hes not really emotional at all, but at least we could maybe hold hands and i could fall asleep on him.








ashley told me a few months ago about how hormones work.

one week before your period and youre pmsing; thats my angry week.
then the week of your period; im usually pretty happy.
then the week after your period, idk what thats called; i get really emotional.




hello week after my period.

I don't know what you're talking about
I LOVE Little Miss Sunshine.

It actually made me quite happy. Yeah, there were sad moments, but much like life. There were also ALOT of funny moments. The end made me entirely too happy, though.
» elessar257 on 2007-01-20 08:45:34

I LOVED this entry. It flowed nicely, from thought to thought.

A friend gave me L.M.S for X-mas, but I haven't watched it.. maybe I should put it on.
» Dilated on 2007-01-20 09:44:44

I also..
liked LIttle Miss Sunshine. But there is some sadness. But as you explained toward the end of your entry...perhaps it's that you watched it during your "week after"? But definitely try watching it during a 'different kind of week' and see what you think =0)
» etheracide on 2007-01-20 05:46:24

Hormones. Blah. :|
» randomjunk on 2007-01-20 06:52:26

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