Christmas came and went.. wasnt very exciting. I spent new years eve at Marcys house... we cuddled while the ball dropped because we didnt have guys there with us. lol. I luv her.

Marcy, Marty, and I all went to zacks house on New Years day for a bonfire type thing, it was pretty cool though. We didnt go to bed til 7:30 in the morning. Crazy. Yeah, i sit here and talk about great times that i can have with my boyfriend.. but why cant i get all excied when i see him, or when he calls me, or when i think about him? Sometimes, hes just like another person to me. Things like this are hard, when you dont know what the hell you want outta life. You dont know what to do to make people appreciate you or to like you. And right now, little things like this is whats driving me up the wall.

Well, HE talked to me today. He only asked me what OH stood for on my lettermans jacket.. but hey, he did talk to me , and he did smile so thats a plus. Left me breathless for a few minutes. Like i said before.. he really is beautiful. And to tell everyone what my new years resolution... its him.. and something else.

Im not trying to sound like a hussy or a girl that gets around, but there is yet another guy in my life. Mystery guy "#1" and this Mystery guy "#2" have both impacted my life so much.. and i dont think ive cared for anyone as much as i have for them. This guy has been in my life since 5th grade, went through so much together. 6 months.. dang. I love...

LOVE.. do i really know what that is? Id like to say i do.. like when i think about "****" and "*****" . I mean, ive said it to all the guys in my life.. but i never really meant it.. only about twice. Im 16.. am i even allowed to be in love yet? I dont know.. but i wish i did.


One of these guys graduate this year.. and hun, if you ever read this... im gonna miss you. I know we live close and all, so you better still come over and give me visits once in a while.. keep in touch. You never know whats gonna happen btw us... hopefully what ive always wanted.

ahh
soo maybe im dumb but what does the 'oh' stand for on your jacket? heh...
» Manda103 on 2005-01-08 06:24:25

oh stands for...
outside hitter... lol amanda your silly
» babygirl1206 on 2005-01-08 07:30:24

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