Sunday. 1.18.04 2:22 pm
mood: fuckin heated!
shitness! most of you already know or atleast has seen just how much i hate the father, but damn everyday it's just getting worse. every fuckin day i go through the same bullshit with his ass whether he's at home or not. he gives me so much bullshit to the point where my mind is slipping away. at school instead of being able to do work, i can't because i'm too lazy due to the fact that i just wanna get senior over with just so that my ass can finally move out of this fuckin house of misery and drama. i can't live the life i wanna live because i always have someone watchin over my every fuckin move. i have to fuckin lie about so many things to my mom even though the things i do are not anything bad.
i mean shit, even to run errands for my team has to be a lie to my mom, hangin out with friends has to be a lie at times ; *
'oh ma we have practice...' oh ma its for school'* what kind of bullshit life is this? i can't even live the clean life i'm livin as a lie to my mom. i bet u wonder why i have to lie to my mom right? well it's because my dad has sort of brainwashed her into thinking that i could be doin bad stuff such as drugs and all that other shiet. he always brings up "where she going? meet with her boyfriend and do stuff?" i mean shiet! it you fuckin know me like u think you do, then you would know that i'm not even that kind of person.ARGH...shiet every fuckin weekend since the father has been back has been hell over and over and over again. no
fuckin freedom what so fuckin ever.
now my mom talks about me goin to UC Irvine. tishhyeah right. like my ass would be able to attend that school. I didn't take no SAT, ACT test at all because i
KNEW where my life was heading and once again that was the military, but now..i don't even know anymore. I'm so
lost...i can't decide what to do college-wise. man whatever.. i have so much to say and vent out, but yet i can't say it.
MY LIFE IS HELL BECAUSE OF YOU! I FUCKIN HATE YOUR ASS!
yeh hate is such a strong word and if you know me, i don't prefer it but in this case i'll say it all the fuck i want. I HATE MY DAD argh i don't even consider him a dad. i hate sayin that three letter word.
that shit! i have no father. i fuckin dis-own his ass.
arite enough venting..for now.
LATER DAYZ
man
sounds like your typical filipino parent ragging on you because youre a girl and they [or he] has too many expectations from you as his daughter. man. if i was a girl id prolly be the same way cause my parents have that kind of mentality. but yeah. ive learned to accept them as much as theyve accepted me. take it easy. peas.
» bifocalLs on 2004-01-24 01:34:48
wow you sound just like my friend...
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