listening to: nasty boy klick- down for yours
mood:uhhhh

i don't really have anything to be bloggin about. I'm just bored at this moment. uhh lets see...oh here's something, can my dad be anymore of an asshole than he is now or what? for those of you (my friends) who know how my dad is, okay check this out: i told my mom about this car that I wanted that a homeboy was sellin, my mom tells my dad about it. THEN a week later my dad brings up the car subject again and says this; " ask apple about that car that was being sold so we can buy it for her brother.''

When my told me about it this morning, I was fuckin heated! Alright, it might not seem as much of big deal than I'm makin it, but if you know my situation and 'father/daughter' relationship with that guy...it's not all that its cracked up to be. I mean shit, i don't talk to the mofo just to have convo..the only time i talk to his ass is when i HAVE to ask him a damn question...but even that i try to get away from. BUT back to my point, how is he gonna go and tell my mom to tell ME to ask about the car I wanted so that he can BUY IT FOR MY BROTHER!

WHAT IN THE FUCKIN HELL IS THAT?! ARGh i'm still fuckin heated by that shit...ahh anyways, my grandparents >(momz side) are willin to buy me a ride for myself. so it goes to show what kind of father my dad is and what lovely grandparents I have. man i love them to death...

which now brings me back to thinkin to JOIN the MILITARY. as of now, i see no purpose of livin my life here in san diego, goin to 11 years of college here in san diego to become a nurse...once again yes..here in damn san diego. FUCK! why is it so fuckin hard on me? don't get me wrong, san diego is the shit...got the beaches, got my friends here, grew up here, but then again there's more to san diego than that. I want to see the world, i wanna experience new and different things, meet new people...heck even meet new friends. the only thing I THINK that is makin me have second thoughts about leavin Diego and joinin the force is... always having to work work work and only getting to see the people worth seeing for a week or two, if lucky a month and of course the fear or losing my life as i'm out there helpin the wounded...but other than that i'm all up for it.

I just want to get away from my dramatic family life with the so-called father. I don't even know why his ass was accepted back into this household. but watever that's another story...if i just had it my way, his ass was divorced by my momz and now we're livin a worry/drama free life. ahh whoo...i think thats all the "venting" i'm gonna do for now...peace easy

LATER DAYZ

..Loving you this way, I’ll never lead you astray
I knew you want to be og, when you put your trust in me
Down for yours if your down for mine (put your trust in me)
I’m down for yours, if your down with my flow, keep it going
I’m always down for my g’s
Down for yours if you’re down for mine...