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Hello dear readers of mine. Hopefully everyone's first week of December went great and better than mine. Well, yes as for me it was HELLA WHACK!

i don't know what or who or how it triggered it, but i was hella sad and depressed and pissed off a whole lot this week. I tried to have fun..but i don't know. I seriously think i'm losing my mind. I've cried so much over this past week, it's rediculous! I've never cried so much in my life..i mean c'mon every damn day. My friend says that I have S.A.D [i fergot what it meant] and I may have an Identity crisis...BAHHH! I really don't think it's an identity crisis...because well the reason why is that I liked the before me before i changed back to the old me. get it? ahh well it's kinda hard to xplain...let me put it this way...when i was "in like" with someone they changed me [and that change i liked] and now that I pushed myself to let go and did let go...i'm slowly going back to the old me before i met that person....

you might not know this but YOU CHANGED ME.

well anyways...since nothin really good happened this week, i guess i could tell u what happened on Wednesday when I was slightly happier. Well yeah, On Wednesday I hung out with Darren, Grino, Ramon and Ginie. We all headed to Horton Plaza and just really walked around there and then some what xplored DOWNTOWN San Diego. I liked it there...just walkin around in downtown..heh. well anyways I thought i'd have fun since i was with Darren, Ginie and Grino, but iono... out of the four people i was with, i was with Ginie the whole time. I didn't even get to hang with the person I was supposed to hang with since he's leavin for Germany for Christmas..heh. well anyways...it was arite at first, but then I ended up getting depressed once again. Damn.... so that day was some what a total waste. CRAP!...

umm...friday just went to practice and learned the routine within 10 minutes of doin it. kinda had fun with my drill team sisters once again even though the ones that were left with me were rooks...heh it's okay...so that was that. Then later on at around 6:30 I call up Eleonor and see what she's up to and found out that she was with Joe and Jason where they were headed to Balboa Park for Christmas at the Prado...so i went and tagged along with them. before that i called up everyone i could think of to just hang, but i guess everyone just gave up on me since either no one answered their phones, just wanted to stay at home or watever else...anyways..yeah. Got to Balboa and walked around...did the chicken dance with ELeonor haha that was fun..went to the art galleries...good stuff over there...then walked some more...then ended the night with dinner at Denny's with Eleonor and Joe. that was friday...and today...i'm stuck at home...BLAHHHHH!

LATER DAYZ