there's about a month of school left . . .

prom's coming ( i don't know what the heck i'm doing, i still don't have a dress or a date and it's a week away!)

grad nite approaches ( i didn't pay, so i can't go :( i wanted to but i was too lazy to turn in the damn packet and get the money to be honest)

senior awards is around the corner ( i know i'll probably get a few)

then finals, and the cherry on top, GRADUATION!

yet, it doesn't feel like the end at all. it feels like the middle of the school year. does time really fly that fast?

i'm afraid, what if i can't keep in contact with all the people i met in high school? truth be told, i don't feel that we're very close at all. but i would still miss everyone. i've never been good at keeping in contact with people. maybe its me or maybe its them. who knows? maybe after graduating, we might actually have more time to spend together. i wish i could keep these people in my life as long as possible. i don't want my relationships with them to fade away. i don't want to forget the people that made school worth coming to. the people that made me feel happy when i was upset. the people who just talked to me. the people who are just there, my classmates. please don't let me lose these people.

i really don't want to forget the simple things like walking down the hallway saying hi to people i know, talking with my friends during passing periods and lunch, hanging with my vocation buds and talking about dumb stuff like what's the difference between hot and pretty, crazy teachers, being in class with my classmates having random discussions that don't relate to what we're currently learning. i can't leave this comfort zone yet.

i really am going to miss high school, it's like a second home where you can hang out with your friends for 6 hours, five days a week. i know i'll move on and get used to university life. everyone goes through this state in their life. transition. i'll definitely make it.

the only thing that really upsets me is that i wish i could have made my high school life more memorable. it seems like not much happened. when i look back, what will i remember? will i remember those little things i mentioned before? there are lots of things i would've changed. for one thing, i wish i wasn't so shy. i should be unafraid to be myself.

i wish i was one of those people who was like "screw it all! it's just superficial bullcrap! i'll never have to see these ugly people again!" and move on with no problems, but i'm not, i realize there's a level of superficiality in high school, but for god's sakes, it's just high school! just have fun while you can.

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