I really just don't feel like dealing with all this shit.
My aunts dying. She's not really my aunt but might as well be. Yanno one of those moms best friend deals.
No one tells me anything and I'm bound living 50 miles from my home town. I'll ask my mom and she just says... I talked to your Aunt, she's ok. Thats why she spent 21 days in ICU... because she's ok.
I didn't know ok was collapsing on the bathroom floor. I didn't know ok was having cancer in your hip bone and liver.
I didn't know ok was giving up. I know that she has. Christmastime she blew off her radiation. She's blown off her Chemo. It's bad.
I'll email her daughter from time to time but I never get a response. On myspace she fills out these surveys with answers about how she can't stop crying and she's praying for her mom. How she's wishing for a miricle.
I have a terrible feeling I'll never get to say goodbye. No one tells me anything. By the time I know anything it's 300000 times worse than it was when they found out...
I've just eaten and I'm sick to my stomach.
I was in a great mood now I'm depressed.
Screw this.
*Hugs* :-( I'm sorry baby... Thinking of you :-*
» LittleBrit on 2007-02-13 02:13:43
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