Sometimes, you can feel it, feel it in your bones. As if there is some negative force running through each limb of your body. Like you are possessed, or consumed by some greater force. Something is taking over, something is bending your will unto it's own. What could it be? Why? Questions that are impossible to answere. The only thing that you can understand, is that you don't understand... That's just the way it goes.

Whatever it is that changes you, it does so reguardless of your will. It refocuses your creativity and your mind. Things that were once dull and out of focus are now so much clearer; and things that were once clear to you have been faded out. It makes you look at what you've been doing and question its integrity. It makes you turn around and realise there is another way... It makes you reconsider and wonder if you have been going the wrong direction this whole time.

So what? you think to yourself, there is no turning back now. However, it won't let you blind yourslef to the truth. It will make you realise, it's never to late to start walking in the right direction. It's never to late to make a change. It gives you all the confidence you need to pick yourself back up and start doing things different.

but do you really want to?

Indecisiveness... this is the outcome... and it will rule your life.

So wtf was all this about right? I'm sure that's what everyone is thinking right about now... That is to be expected I suppose. Well, this is what it's like whenever I go to the store. That's right, anything from picking out some cereal to picking out a new video game. They all lead to the same outcome. As soon as I find what I want... something tries to change my mind... it causes chaos... a confusion that cannot be cured.

I've come to realise that my indecisiveness will rule my life more or less. I don't think I will ever be able to choose what I want. It's never a clear cut decision. It teeters back and forth, and never seems to stop. One minute one choice seems better, the next minute another seems better... There is never an end to it... it's madness

Sometimes it's just impossible to make a decision

Yeahhh same here. With everything actually...review my blog and you'll even see indecisiveness about my hair cut. Im still not positive I want short hair either. :-D
» AshleyEverhart on 2004-08-02 05:53:48

hmm...
i saw go for the video game. just wait for cap'n crunch to 'crunchitize' you.
» chocobopnai on 2004-08-03 02:13:40

lol - wtf
» AshleyEverhart on 2004-08-03 02:18:18

yeah i gues the trick would prolly be to just go with your first instinct... but who cares right?
» Zig_Justice on 2004-08-04 11:46:23

hmm.. hooz scary? o.0
» [*d0rkstuhr*] on 2004-08-04 09:26:24

i thought i commented...i guess not...hmm...decisions decisions...
» Ajibalaji89 on 2004-08-04 11:45:51

holy moly
i am so bad and decision making!!! i never want to make a choice for myself heh. jon always makes me choose where we're going and such...he's so mean to me. making me worry about if my decision is good enough or not and then worrying if he'll like my decision and oh my gosh it just snowballs from there! gahhhhhh NO MORE DECISIONS.
» lenas_life on 2004-08-05 01:33:26

lol. I do the same exact thing. Pete always makes me decide stuff!! I hate it! btw pete, your comment was the perfect length ;-)
» AshleyEverhart on 2004-08-05 02:01:29

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