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Mmk this is all about me~smilez~ 1.....2.....3.....4..... Tinkerbell
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| ~~**....**~~ Tuesday. 10.5.04 12:01 am "Time To Burn"
Fear of the dark tears me apart
won't leave me alone and time keeps running out
Just one more life, I'm so sick and tired
of singing the blues, I should turn my life around
[Chorus:]
Tell me why do I feel this way
all my life I`ve been standing on the borderline
too many bridges burned
too many lies I've heard
I had life but I can't go back
I can't do that, it will never be the same again
and I know I don't
have any time to burn
they follow me home, disturbing my sleep
but I'll find a place, place where they cannot find me
maybe I'm lost, and maybe I'm scared
but too many times I've closed the doors behind me
[Chorus]
leave it all behind
cross the borderline
face the truth, don't have any time to...
don't have any time to burn
[Chorus]
**....I dont exactly know what or where Im going with this journal entry....some of you may understand some of it..and others will just not even try...I feel like there is a war going on within me fightin with myself about everything I think I have ever known. I have fallen head over heels in love with josherz theres no doubt about that...but then I have these feelings for others that are so binding and im unable to let go of them. I dont know why I cant. I should be able to since Im content with josh. I know he loves me and I him. I am just so damn caring and thats my entire problem. I care so damn much about the people in my lives that even though they hurt me and treat me like shit I always stick with them. I wont leave a person alone. It's just not in me. And they all know it. Im not a very open person and yet I am to some people. they can read me like an open book and it pisses me off so much because then Im left open to be hurt like always. Thats so not fair to me. Then IM left to deal with all the pain alone. And I can't do it most of the time. I feel like I have no one to turn to, and yet I have everyone. I don't know why the hell I feel that way either. And most of the time no one can make me think otherwise. The one person that can make me think otherwise has hurt me the most, and yet I still let her heal me. Because she knows how to, I let her know every part of me Inside and out. But knowing how to heal me means that she also knows how to hurt me. I dont blame her for being herself. She is who she is and I love her just like that. Nothing could ever change that feeling. In case you didnt know, Im really bad at pushing people out of my life. I just cant do it. I care too much and feel to much.Theres a quote that completely describes me...."If there were no words, no way to speak, I would still hear you. If there were no tears no way to feel inside, I'd still feel for you". I feel for everyone I guess im just doomed to feel pain for everyone and to heal . I guess its a blessing in disguise because I have so many people whom I care about and care about me.I dont know Im just kind of in a wierd mood right now.
MMk terr....Im happy that your with ur new girl and I never meant to come off like I did. I have just been through a really shitty weekend except for when I was with Josh. He makes me happy and I have been failing to see that. But when u started acting all distant and just plain being an asshole it hurt me. And IM not going to lie to you, yes I care for you. We have so much In common its so wierd. It is only once in a lifetime u can meet someone like you and you me....I prolly shouldnt have taken things so far into my emotions though and neither should you because it just got us both hurt. But the only way to remedy love is to love more. So *lovez*babe.....you'll always be my terr-berr(yes I finally came up wity one)**lata
"Send The Pain Below"
I liked having hurt,
So send the pain below where I need it,
You used to beg me to take care of things,
And smile at the thought of me failing.
But long before, having hurt,
I'd send the pain below,
I'd send the pain below.
Much like suffocating,
Much like suffocating,
Much like suffocating,
(I'd send the pain below...)
Much like suffocating,
(I'd send the pain below...)
You used to run me away,
All while laughing.
Then cry about the fact,
'til I returned.
But long before, having hurt,
I'd send the pain below,
I'd send the pain below.
Much like suffocating,
Much like suffocating,
Much like suffocating,
(I'd send the pain below...)
Much like suffocating,
(I'd send the pain below...)
Much like suffocating.
I can't feel my chest,
Need more, drop down,
Closing in.
I can't feel my chest,
Drop down.
I liked, having hurt.
So send the pain below,
So send the pain below,
(Much like suffocating) [I liked]
So send the pain below,
(Much like suffocating) [Having hurt]
So send the pain below,
(Much like suffocating)
So send the pain below,
(Much like suffocating)
So send the pain below.
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