Mood:: Eh
Music:: The Robot Ate Me ===> Song:: The Red-haired Girl
Hey there everyone. Time to fill you all in, eh wot wot?
I had an alright birthday I suppose. I took the day off. I didn't mean to, I was planning on going to school. But then I missed my bus so my mom just let me stay home. I spent the day with her, which really is NOT my ideal way to spend my birthday or any day. But we hung around the house for a while, then took off. We went to eat, I had a hamburger and fries and shake, and then to the mall. We walked around the mall, and I guess I was sposed to pick something out for my birthday, but I didn't. I hope she just lets me buy some CD's offline. But anyways, we just walked around, and I guess it was an OK time, but for some reason I just felt kind of sad. And I don't know why, I really don't. Maybe I guess I just kinda wished I could have spent the day with or at least seen my friends. I mean, I was kinda looking forward to having people tell me happy birthday at school. I wanted to see how many would actually remember. Or maybe it just didn't feel like a birthday. But I dunno, that shouldn't have bothered me, I really don't like birthdays. I mean, I like the stuff I get lol, I mean it's not important, but it's nice to have, and in a way I like how people treat me special...but in a way I don't. I mean, I don't know, I think it would be totally cool to get people presents on my birthday. I don't like how people feel like they HAVE to treat me really nice on my birthday. Like how people will say "Ok, 'cause it's your birthday". Like, it just seems weird to me. Don't like me or want to do things for me just because it's my birthday. It should be unconditional or not at all. I think I'm going to treat everyone like it's their birthday everyday...you know, minus the Happy Birthday Song. Cause really I should, isn't that how it should be?
Anyway, after that we went and saw a movie, "Connie and Carla". It was funny! I liked it.
The next day, we went out for a birthday dinner, since we didn't have time before. We went to the Outback, it was good, but I felt the same as the day before, and it pisses me off cause i don't know why. Maybe it was just those pesky hormones lol. Oh but I had a really good sundae, and it had a candle in it. Oh but what's funny is there were two other people in the same section as me also having birthday dinners. Wow
I can't really remember anything else special until Friday. I went to a barbeque with Cindy, at her mom's school (her mom is a teacher). It was fun, we got to just hang out. And we talked to this guy named Sylvester, and he played hackey sack with us and showed us this pond thing with snakes and "bullfrogs" (don't ask), and it was cool. The best part was just gettin to hang with Cindy though ^_^. Oh and there was a dessert auction and the Ameretto Cheesecake Cindy made went for THIRTY BUCKS!!! WOOHOO! GO CINDY!
I spent the night at her house that night, and tried to make her stay up late, but she fell asleep by one, the big baby. Lol, it was still fun though.
Saturday my mom made me go to work with her for a few hours. She works at an Alzheimer's facility, and she sent me off with the Activities Coordinator. God, it was so sad I was on the verge of tears the whole time almost. All the residents there just want out. That's all they want.
I.E.:
A guy and one of the Activities Coordinators, Megan, was talking to one of the residents, Calvin:
M: How are you today, Calvin?
C: Oh, not so good.
M: Oh, why's that?
C: I have these rental houses, and my sister is taking all the money form them, and I'm not getting any of it.
M: You know what? I think she's using it to pay your bills.
C: Bills, what bills?
M: For here. She's renting you a room downstairs, remember?
C: Oh, well I wish she wouldn't. I don't like it here, I just want to go home.
Is that not totally sad??? God that made me want to cry. And they all kept asking how to get out of there, or if I was gonna "get me out of here today?", and all that. I just wanted to bawl my eyes out.
It was a good experience though, and some of it was fun. Like, there was this one lady named Ann, and she seemed just normal, and she reminded me so much of my Grammy. Her voice sounded just like Gramma's, and she kept singing, which my Gram does. It made me miss Grammy! But Ann was a really nice lady, and she kept saying things like "Oh, you have such a beautiful face, you know that?" (Usually I would say "You're crazy" to someone who told me that, but I didn't think it would be a very polite thing to say to someone with Alzheimers...) and "You have a dimple riiight there, it's the cutest thing!". I miss my Grammy!!
There was this one lady named Helen, and she was sooo quiet when she spoke, but she was funny! She made me crack up! The lady I was with, the Activities Coordinator, Liz, was talking to her...
L: I haven't been bad lately...er, I mean, at all!
H: Aw, well that's too bad.
Hahaha! She said a bunch of funny stuff like that, it was hilarious.
There was this one lady, she kept saying "Oh, I have to go to the bathroom AWFUL bad!" even though she just went...and though that might sound funny on the surface, it's really not. Because she was really suffering from the disease. And she could hardly move, she had to use a wheelchair, and her hip hurt, and she was just in bad shape and really out of touch with reality.
And there were all these times where the residents would say something that was obviously not applicable to the situation, cause of the disease, of course.So sad :(. Like "We can go as soon as I pack up the dishes, ok?" And see, that's another sad thing, just about everything they said had something to do with getting out of the facility. They just want to leave. =(
I played ball with a few of them for quite a while. We just bounced this big rubber ball back and forth. There was me, Ann, Calvin, a man named Harlo, and the A.C. Liz. There was also another lady named Olga, but she was really out of it and just stared down at her lap the whole time. And a while into it Calvin's sister came to visit him, and she was really sweet too. And there was this guy who came in a ways through, but I could tell it was really hard for him to concentrate and play and all that, and we'd have to get his attention before we threw the ball to him, and he looked startled and a little shaken every time. It was so depressing. I felt so bad for them.
Hahaha there's this one guy there, Charlie, and he's this total ladies man!! It's so funny! There are women there who actually fight over him! And I was walking with him and I hear from behind us "Ooh Chhaaarrliiiee! Yoohoo!" and he looks at me and mumbles "Oh boy..." and turns around to the lady calling him and goes "Well, good afternoon!". So funny.
And there's this one lady Glorice. She has it pretty bad, and that's sad and all, but it's funny, because she'll be nicer to you if you compliment her hahaha. So like you have to say "Hello Glorice, you look lovely today!" and she'll open up. Lol. Through her age you can tell she used to be a raging beauty. She still is, just a wrinkly one.
When I was going back upstairs to see my mom, this one guy stops me and says:
Him: Excuse me, do you know, if I want to go east, when I get out of here, which path I should take?
Me: Uhhh....No, sorry, I don't.
H: Oh...well, don't you get people out of here?
M: No, sorry, that's not my job here.
H: Oh...well I was just wondering..I just..I just asked...why isn't that your job?
M: You know, I really don't know.
H: Why not?
M: Well, we can't always have the job we wish to have.
H: What is your job?
M: Um...Well, I'm the beauty stylist...so no, I can't help you get out, but call me if you ever need a perm, ok?
H: Oh! I could use a perm right now, thank you!
M: Oh, I'm sorry, I'm booked all this week! I'll give you a call when things settle down, ok?
H: That will be great, thank you!
M: You're very welcome, have a nice day Sir.
H: Same to you.
And I just walked off. It felt weird to just feed him all that bullshit, but that's what Liz was doing to all the residents, so I figured that's what I was supposed to do. Yeah, it's weird but that's what they do with them. Like, one of the residents insisted to speak with the CIA, so they called my mom (the receptionist), and had my mom pose as a representitive. It's crazy lol.
But see, that guy, too, just wanted to GET OUT of there! It's so sad. I know I just keep saying that, but it is! I'm kind of afraid to get old now. If I ever get to that point, where I'm in some facility, or I don't remember my firends and family, or I can barely move, or I'm completely out of touch with reality (even more than I am now lol), I hope they just pull the plug. I don't want to live like that.
But mostly I'm afraid to get old because of what could and will happen to the people I love. It's gonna kill me someday when all my friends start to die, and my parents are long gone, and I have to watch my friends be commited to nursing homes, or if one of my friends gets Alzheimers and doesn't knwo who the hell I am. Like seriously, Alzheimers runs in Cynthia's family. What if she gets it when we get old? That would kill me. I can't stand to watch my friends, or anyone for that matter, suffer, and Alzheimers is just about the most sad disease there is. And then as I watch her lose touch with conciousness, she'll also forget who I am. I can't bear to think about it.
Ahem, well, new subject. This is far too depressing.
Sunday I just hung out, I think. Then went to dinner with my Daddy. That's it I think.
Yesterday was Monday. With the WASL testing going on, our schedule was all screwy. Our periods went in this order: 3, 4, 1, 2. 3rd for one hour, 4th for two, and 1 and 2 for 1 1/2. Don't ask me why. I loved it though, I had art for two hours!! (And our teacher gave us all free soda, woohoo! Lol). And English was only for an hour! And I got to have lunch with Cindy and Kelly!!!! W00T!!! It was so great. So yeah, at the beginning of the day I was really happy, cause of the whole cool schedule-ness. But for some reason, I don't know why, but at the end of the day, I was just in a bad mood. Nothing had really gone wrong, but I just wanted to go home more than anything. And I felt like I had a short temper, and I dunno, it was just a really bad feeling. Hormones I guess haha. And yeah, like I said I just REALLY wanted to go home, I didn't want to be at school. BUT I had PLAY REHEARSAL so I had to stay an extra HOUR AND A HALF! AHHHHHH! GRRRR!!!!! It pissed me off! But then as soon as I got home I felt OK again. It was so weird.
Oh and then later, Cindy was sposed to meet our friend Alex at a Quiznos to hang out, and he invited me along but I didn't have a ride so I stayed at home. But Cindy went to the wrong quiznos hahahahaha. So she walked over to my house cause it was close by, then we hung for a bit and her parents came and picked her up. It was cool.
Today we had the same scedule, except we got EARLY DISMISSAL!!! WOOHOO! But we still had the same order of classes, except we didnt have the last period of the day (normal 2nd period) cause of the early out. But we still had 2 hours of art, and that was cool. And only an hour of English and Math, so that was really cool too. And lunch was fun again, cause again I got to hang with Cindy and Kell. And a few other people I don't usually get to see during lunch too, like Aaron, Anthony, Danielle, etc. It was nice to get to see them. And then there was only one of the usual people I hang out with, Jason, but he's a good one lol. Yeah in case you haven't noticed, the WASL schedule switched up all our lunches too.
Hmmmmm wellll, is there anything else you should know? Nope, I think I have you all filled in. Hell, I'm prolly missing something, but I'm too lazy to think. So I'm gonna let you all go. ...Wow this is a long entry. I guess that's what I get for waiting a week to update. Hey, did anyone actually read this whole thing?
Mood:: My nose itches
Music:: The Monolith ===> Song:: 43
Talking to:: Alan kinda
