Only trust can inspire soggy lungs to breathe fire
Mood:: Wondermentness
Music:: Weezer ===> Song:: December
Hey guys, I know I haven't written in a while. Shame on me! (*Shaaammee!*)
Here's the lowdown, keep it on the downlow:
We're finally performing our school play, Antigone, after 5 months of rehearsals, and 3 postponments of performances, it's finally time. Our opening show was ast night, and we have two more, one tonight, and one tomarrow night, then we're all done!ur performance went pretty well last night. So yay! And after the final performance on Saturday, Hester is trowing a cast party for everyone, so that's gonna be really fun. It's fnny, at first I didn't like Hester, without even knowing her, becaue she got the lead, and i wanted it lol. I mean, I didnt hte her, I was just like "why her!" and i was really jelous, so that bred a lil dislike. Now Ive gotten to know her and we're friends. So all is well. Haha anyways, the best part of last night was that we got to put make-up on the guys, well, jordan anyway. Such a good sport. It was so much fun, and funny. Jordans awesome though, and he gave us a free peep show. Hahaha I know you must be confused, ok, we were in te green room and he changed out of his costume so he was in his boxer-briefs and a shirt, lol, so it wasnt REEEAAALL peep show, but still a good time.
As for me, right now I'm really just wondering about how my life is going to turn out, and I feel like I'm just along for the ride. Which i guess is true, right? I'm really confused at the moment. The guy I've very strongly liked for months now...is...i dunno. Confusing, to say the least. Something happened with us, I cant say what because of the whole public log thing, nuthin bad, twas just hard for me & made me sad, and made it hard to be around him. And I've been trying to make an effort lately to talk to him and be around him, because I dont want us to drift apart and lose our friendship, because he's a really good friend of mine, my best guy friend in fact, so I've been trying to make the effort, even tough it hurts to be around him...knowing i cant have him...but...he just seems different. Not totally, it just seems like...some of the magic is gone. He's not as sweet as he always has been before, and it seems like he's not making the effort to carry a conversation when we talk. He never calls m really anymore, I have to call him, where as before it was 75% him calling me, and 25% me calling him, now it's like reversed. It just seems like he doesnt want to be around me very much. I mean, dont get me wrong, it's not as different as it may be sounding, he's still sweet and all, and he's still himself...in a way...but in a way its a lot different too. Maybe I'm just overreacting, or overcomplicating things. I hope so, because i dont want to lose him.
In other news, I found out someone likes me! And would date me! I wont say his name, for his sake, we'll just call him X. But YAY, cause I like him too so far. but theres a couple things that might keep me from doing anything about it for the moment..
A) I don't really know him well enough yet, I'd have to get to know him a bit better first.
B) I'm still not over the guy mentioned above, we'll call him Y, and at the moment it feels like i never will be, at least not fully...And I don't know if it's fair to X to go out with him when I still feel so strongly for Y...I mean, it's not like I would ever ever ever do anything with or persue Y if I was with X, if i have a boyfriend I'm going to be comletely committed to him and only him, but still...i just don't know if it's te right thing to do...someone help!!!
I need all your guys's advice! please comment! help!
Mood:: Help!
Music:: Mest ===> Song:: Chelsea
hmmmmm
i say go after the person you like the most... the one you have the most feelings for... and dont hold back, you have to attack at full force.. lol. j/k, but yea, just go after x.. or was it y..
» djjester on 2004-02-07 05:10:13
so...
my advice is totally go for x, I mean this is a good opportunity and maybe it will help you get over y since your not so focused on him as much. Plus x is pretty hot and he likes you and youre always complaining that no one will ever like you and TADA! some one does and you like them back so if you dont go for them ill be super pissed! arright im done, thats my advice
» CindyInHerNutShell on 2004-02-07 06:27:47
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