The one thing I absolutely didn't expect from my trip to New York was to feel that old addiction pop back up. Dragging the suitcase, printing the tickets from the kiosk, going through security, finding the gate, sitting, waiting, waiting, waiting, the boarding call, the whole flight safety spiel, liftoff, watching the clouds and the giant stretches of city and grass and suburbs, landing, emerging in a different place, absorbing, and then that great and relieving ride home.

All of it. I don't even mind security--it's so easy, if you have the good sense to pack light, dress in easy-to-remove shoes and coats, and keep all your liquids in the outer compartment. Just being in New York and experiencing something new is something I didn't realize I'd missed until I got to the airport and thought, Right--flying, traveling.

I suppose I just forgot.


I used to be adventurous, and then I started changing my priorities. It wasn't worth it. It's time to return to the better years of spontaneity, travel, and fearlessness--before the monster in my closet, before the lone wolf, before decisions such as this one were hard to make. Keep all the wisdom and none of the fear. My best friendships have lasted over hundreds of miles of distance and months of separation--there is absolutely nothing to fear, when something is meant to work. Put in the effort, but wander freely.

It feels like it's been years that my alarm's been going off. A part of me was always trying to shake me awake. Stop hitting snooze, get up, get a shower, and see the world, you idiot.

Gogogogogogogogo

Damn I miss New York.
» randomjunk on 2013-02-03 09:07:27

Also, I wish I could say the same about my friendships. I'm not sure how to find people who want to be friends with me/will put in effort.
» randomjunk on 2013-02-03 09:08:27

I was in the city about fifteen hours ago..

You love it more than me I think.
» undisputed on 2013-02-03 10:59:24

Yeaaaaah, that's right, shake the dust off your feet and SEE THE WORLD!

[and come to France!]
» Zanzibar on 2013-02-04 10:42:57

Yes, let me live vicariously through you!!! Travel and see the world and blog about it! Yayyyy!
» Amelie on 2013-02-04 12:33:38

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