It'd be excellent if you shut up
Thursday. 8.23.07 1:23 am
There's something about my dad that puts me to sleep, but not in the good way. He has no future in motivational speaking, and no matter how hard he tries to drive a point, the only thing I get is the image of his head spinning through the Twilight Zone barking "blah blah blah." Everything is so repetetive, and he talks to me like I'm completely ignorant. I may be a teenager, but I'm not THAT stupid. My eyelids get heavy, and everytime I blink it gets harder to open them again...
Excitement is not something I experience often, or not something I exude on a regular basis at least, but now....ahh. College. Halfway through the summer I began dreading it, wanting to desperately cling to High School and jump rope, but something's changed, really changed. I reluctantly give my parents some of the credit, who planned the campus tours to begin with. There's still Senior year for me to experience, and I know I'm going to love it, but that feels more like filler compared to the prospect of independence. Now don't get me wrong, I will most likely find myself crying pathetically at the graduation assembly, but it's such a relief to know that I actually care about my life beyond high school.
I have to wake up early so I can work up the nerve to try back handsprings in the yard tomorrow before practice, to keep my coach from devouring my soul. I'm a little apprehensive though, first of all because I have an intense phobia of flying backwards, and also because I haven't been drinking enough so my legs keep cramping up. The muscle in my calf tightens involuntarily, and it takes a few seconds before I can get them to relax. It's not really pain, but whatever IT is it's the worst.
Do not try to bend the spoon. That's impossible. Instead, try to realize the truth. There is no spoon. Then you will see that it is not the spoon that bends, it is only yourself.
And here I was thinking boys didn't cry. :P
At least you can zone out when he talks to you. When my parents lecture me it seems like I can't focus on anything else, so I have to sit through each excruciatingly annoying word. :|
» randomjunk on 2007-08-23 04:38:15
I used to get into so much trouble bc when I zone out i get this real blank expression on my face and my mom would call me out on it pretty quick lol. You're lucky if he doesnt notice!
Have you thought about which schools youre going to apply for?
» lyndeep on 2007-08-23 09:23:49
It's absolutely amazing, the freedom you will feel when you go away to school. Just don't get too attatched to it, because the moment you come home for the weekend/breaks or what have you, it all gets zapped away, and you're back to the Twilight Zone.
Yeah, I knew you couldn't be Jailbait, even though he does go to FWHS, and there's a high likelihood the two of you have met. Actually, there's a high likelihood that we have crossed paths too, especially if you've been to the new community center.
» Someones_Muse on 2007-08-23 02:14:56
Heidi. I guard Saturdays and Sundays. Are you going to go look me up in a yearbook now?
» Someones_Muse on 2007-08-23 03:14:05
mmm, no. I wouldn't want to violate the privacy of others any more than I already do.
» Someones_Muse on 2007-08-23 05:10:23
I hate Twilight Zone. Not the t.v. show--I mean, the one you're talking about. And I can't wait to get away from it. I'm sure it'll be a great feeling, no?
Good luck with your college stuff! No matter what your dad says, it's ultimately your decision. I have to keep that in mind myself. =P Too bad about jump roping. I wonder if we'll ever get to see you doing those awesome tricks for ourselves? Hmm...
And about random-dear...*cough* Yes, I know. Apparently, you're cheating on me with the sbox as well. o.o Are you?
» Silver-dot- on 2007-08-23 10:15:56
You're a really good writer..
And I'm feeling you on the whole fear of flying backwards.
I don't even like flying forwards.
» Dilated on 2007-08-24 01:16:31
Luckilly, (I think,)
I have two years before worrying about that. wOOt.
That line about me being cool seriously made me laugh out loud. Maybe you can start a jump roping club at college?
That'd be awesome beyond measure.
I'm going to rock the world my senior year.
» middaymoon on 2007-08-24 07:42:00
I read that last comment and said "I ****in' hate you!"
INCOMPLETE COMMENT?! I MUST KNOW WHAT YOU THINK SHE THINKS
» Dilated on 2007-08-24 09:29:57
i like your island man.
» Silver-dot- on 2007-08-25 10:37:53
I met Elvia in class that day. I sat next to her and we had some small talk before class begun. And about the drinking, I'm right there with you.. some people become imbeciles when they're drunk.
» Dilated on 2007-08-26 12:52:56
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