It's All Just A Pointless Waste Of Time
Sunday. 11.28.04 2:02 am
What the fuck do I even have to look forward to? I don’t fucking have anything at all. I can’t do anything, and don't try to tell me I’m handsome or really nice or some bullshit like that, I know it’s not true. I really have not one single thing at all. I cant do this at all anymore, I just want to not feel bad or just be happy, and I cant even fucking do that. If I’m still like this in 2 to 3 months I am just going to end it, there’s no point at all, if you can’t be happy, one of the simplest things in life, then there is no point to life. I want to be dead so fucking bad, you have no idea. Everyone I know my age is maybe not happy, but they’re not sad either, I’m the only person that’s such a fuck up, I can’t even be that. I really just want to go to sleep and not wake up one day. I just sit here hoping that just maybe, I wont take my next breathe…
whoa slow down..
I kno life is hard.. I'm basicly in the same boat. I'm not pretty and it will be a miricle if i have a relationship the lasts over 6 months. I've tryed suicide as the way out, and I have the scars to prove it.. I use to think my life waz a joke and every day when I was 5 and older I would come home everyday wanting to die. but it's not worth it. Every day I drag my self on and Smile no matter how I feel, and you should do the same. Something always comes good out of it. My friends are the only thing keeping me going right now. Stick with your friends, they are the best peolpe to turn to.
» Midnight on 2004-11-28 08:09:27
I know how your feeling steveo life is sucking pretty hard for me too... but someday people like us will find something that makes us happy. Getting married and finding a girlfriend isnt always about looks your a nice kid. Or i seriously wouldnt talk to you. sometimes its matters just a little more whats on the inside then the out. I know YOU FEEl that everyone hates you. But its not true,. You know How i know that? Because i sometimes think the same thing. We will mkae it. We may be depresssed now but the sun will shine my dear ol brother the sun will shine
» kadyisazn on 2004-11-28 10:44:53
You dont always have friends though
» StevenG on 2004-11-28 11:13:14
heh
6th grade waz the first time I ever made a real school friend. Everyone has a friend. if not, everyone talks to someone at school. I know it's hard but try and be positive. It's not worth it. I have to make sure my leg is covered constantly so noone tells the school board. They say the slits on my wrist im middle school and I can't have anymore reports or I could be sent away. It's not worth reliving the pain everyday when I see the scars. Live life to the fullest, no matter what happens.
» Broken_Inside on 2004-11-29 06:13:05
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