So today is Friday and it is the day that my best friend flies across country to live with her boyfriend for the summer. Her boyfriend is in the Air Force and he's stationed out in Arizona. And I know that times have been tough for her with him being so far away...But like...I hate that she's going. I wont tell her this...I will be a good friend and say "That's awesome!!!!" and "I'm so happy for you" and "this will be sooo good for you guys!" and I DO think this...but I'm also kind of devastated.

Throughout all of middle and high school I had two best friends. Ashley and Kirsten. and I was super close to both of them though they weren't really close to each other. But yeah....I have never had more fun with a friend than I had with those two people. There have been SO many memories shared and they've both helped me through so much.

Now....in my senior year, Kirsten met this boy online. His name was Grant and he lived in California. They fell in love with the help of the web cams and telephones. She went up to visit him a few times and he came to visit too. After our graduation she told me she got accepted into a community college over there and is leaving in a few weeks to live with him and attend school.
I held myself together and convinced myself that we'd be able to be best friends still despite the distance. So I'd message her on facebook/Myspace all the time and tell her all about what was going on in my life and ask her tons of questions. I'd spend at least an hour whenever I could to write to her. My responses in return usually consisted of stuff like: "that's awesome that you went to Ocean city. I'm super busy. Love you!"

and that's how are relationship was for about a year. As most of you can guess her relationship with this guy didn't last and so she was moving back to Maryland. YAY! I was so excited!!!! that is...until she got back. Things had changed. and to this day, I barely talk to her. I can't even say that we're honestly still friends....we're more like acquaintances that see each other every blue moon in group settings. And its sad.

Now...back to Ashley. She leaves today to live with her boyfriend for the summer. and I know its only for the summer....but then as soon as she moves back she goes back to school (her senior year at college) and I RARELY see her during this time because she's busy with classes and homework. Then after she graduates, she's MOVING out to Arizona permanently until he gets re-stationed somewhere closer to Maryland--but not IN Maryland because he refuses to live there.

So I just feel like this is it. The end. It feels like the Kirsten story all over again.
and I'm devastated. What's worse is that she chose to make time for her friends that she lived with and saw every day when at college and then bailed out on me.

.....but I'm okay.

:(
» thaitanic on 2010-06-04 09:34:07

Newish friend time?
It sucks when your friends are away, especially during the summer.
Maybe you could join a club, or something, and make friends through that. Or. Something...

:/
» invisible on 2010-06-04 03:44:37

Good friends are hard to come by. You have reason to be upset. I get it.
» Unicornasaurus on 2010-06-04 09:51:43

WHAT?
WHAT WHAT!? I have to admit now I am devastated that you never had as much fun with a friend as you did with those two. Huh, this actually seriously hurts. Ok. Buts ok. I'll be ok. I love you no matter what. Ashley's different than that. I don't think this will happen again.
» fashionablylate on 2010-06-04 11:14:29

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