No one cares. Sitting in the car as we drove by the dank houses and cold concrete i realized. No one cares. There is not a single soul out there for me. No one to tell, no one to listen, no one to be with me. I understand this is how life will stand. and i understand that this is what i life has sent. No one cares. No one could give a damn. So what, the failure is running for office? she'll fail, why listen. So what, the failure has a poem that might win, she wont. why listen. So what, the failure has a mind, has eyes, has ears, and most of all, a heart, though slowly dieing. Dont listen. I am merely another person who tried and failed. I am merely another person who tried and fell. I will become nothing, like i have always been. Who cares. No one. I am alone. ALONE. so be it. I will run. I will win. I will slam. I will win. I will listen. I will survive. dont believe me, cause i have failed before. So be it. When i rise up, you wont be there to see. When i rise up, i will thank no one. So be it. This is what life has sent. This is what I will live this is what I will be.
Just. Me. Don’t care. Don’t listen don’t you dare.
Care
(sigh)
Sigh
I don't know what happened to make you sooo pessimistic all of a sudden, but you should really stop with the self-pitying shit. It doesn't get you anywhere. And if you're going think that NO ONE cares, then you are a complete idiot. Look around Priscilla, really look around. Can you honestly say that no one cares? You have a loving family, even though they are really over protective, that doesn't mean they don't love you and they don't care. Granted, you can give yourself the excuse that I really don't know what the fuck is going on in your life with your parents or anything. But I've seen it in your mother's eyes, I see it in the way she talks and acts, she loves you with all her heart. My mom may not accept the fact that I'm a lebian, she may even detest it and find it really disgusting, but that doesn't mean she doesn't love me. She does. And if you still don't believe anyone cares, just for what it's worth, I care. I wouldn't take the chance of writing this if I didn't. There's a lot of people out there that care, Priscilla. You just have to open your eyes and see. Your teachers care. Ms. Ryan cares. Asa cares about you. Even Chanel cares about you. And I am pretty damn sure Bonnie cares about you. David cares about you. Self-pity has a way of blinding you to a lot of things. I didn't realize it until just recently. Take a look around, Priscilla. People everywhere have an affect on your every day life, whether it is big or small. They affect how high you go or how low you fall. How do you know that the experiences won't affect your success? Take a look at your past Priscilla, you've been through a lot. Bad times, yes? Look at your life now. You have become a better person because of it.
You could be the person that tried and succeeded. You aren't a failure. Just try your best and you'll never be a failure. Try and failing does not mean you're a failure. There's a lot of people out there that don't even try. It isn't the results that determine who you are, but what you do with it. Just go a day, a week, loving yourself. Praising yourself. Things will get better. You should really get rid of the self-pity. The only person that's stopping you is yourself. Get past the hate for yourself, and I will guarantee you can accomplish anything you put your mind to, not only that, but feel great because of it.
Stop thinking about how no one cares and start thinking about all the people who do care. Stop looking at all the bad things that you "think" are there, and start looking at the good things that you know are there. Stop second guessing yourself all the time. Go with your instinct. Follow your heart. And stop thinking that no one will care or love you because of something that you "think" is true. I can think of a thousand things good about you for everyone one thing you think is bad about you. Take the time to actually gain some real knowledge about yourself. Learn the truth. Weight the goods with the bad. Like I've said before, it's all about the mind set. I couldn't give you an answer about how to change your way of thinking, I think I just gave it to you.
Priscilla, just love yourself. Don't just love yourself because you think there's no one else in your life and that you are all alone. Don't just love yourself for accomplishing things. Honestly and truly LOVE yourself for who you are. Work on your faults and make yourself a better person because of it. But don't wallow in self-pity. Don't let it consume you, not when you have the strangth and will to overcome it.
Everyone knows what a success you can be. Everyone believes it. The only person that doesn't is yourself. It's time for you to start believing in yourself.
Now, I can write a twenty page essay on you and how you aren't a failure and how much potential you have to succeed and be the best at everything you do, and how you have a good heart, a great character, and all that good junk. It won't help unless you decide to take action.
I dare to care. Shoot me.
I love you, kiddo.
Cheer up.
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