i miss the intellects in life. i really do. reading shauns thing really reminded me of that. i miss talking. the people that i spend the most time with now are ju and rojo. rockets are my life. eh. i like them. i like the people. i need to hang out with rob. he's a decent intellect. i'd enjoy that. sit and talk with him. there are people out there that i would like to talk to. just sit and talk to. wont get the oppertunity but it would be enjoyable. eh.
im not running. in a sense i am but i'm not. i'm coming to terms with what has happened. i am accepting. theres nothing that i can do and i'm tired of saying that and being completly apathetic. but im starting to feel again. feel mad, sad, guilty, whatever it maybe but im feeling it. i am. thats what counts. i know i cant do anything so after feeling i accept and hopefully move on. i did with my mother hating me. i can with jessica. it'll hurt. but i can accept. sometimes i fall. i can get up.
i got the highest grade on the benchmark test for science and it amazes me. I got a better grade then naziear who by far is a genuis. it scares me. but it gives me hope. maybe i can do something with this shattered life. If i apply my self can i go somewhere? i dont know. i dont know. damnit.
lets focus on now. finish rocketry. build rocket. launch it. win.
Blah
I'm not suppose to contact you in any way or form. But fuck, I just can't resist. Let's see, where to start. I'm glad you're feeling again. It's never good to be apathetic. Congrats on getting the highest grade. I told you you were smart. And you are most likely smarter then that kid in your physics class, so I don't know why you're so amzed. Hehe. You can go anywhere you wanna go, be anything you want to be, if you just apply yourself. I miss Ms. Ryan. And, your mom doesn't hate you. I don't know how much you know and what she told you, but she's only doing what she "thinks" is best for you. She wouldn't have done what she did if she didn't love you. Anyways, I just wanted you to know that I still love you, and I miss you a lot. And I'm still here for you. If there's anything you need, all you gotta do is pick up the phone and call. For what's it worth, I'm sorry for getting you in trouble with the whole skipping thing. But anyways, cheer up. This isn't over until we (Not someone else) say it's over. The only people that can break our bond of friendship is ourselves. I don't want that to happen. Do you? I don't want to let you go. Think about it this way Priscilla. This is just something to prepare us for college cause quite obviously we will not be going to the same college and we both would need to learn how to live without each other. We're just getting a head start. I don't even know if you want this friendship to continue, I don't know what you're thinking, or how you feel. But I just wanted you to know that, in my mind and in my heart, you're still my truest friend. Speaking of college, I've got something to say about that. I'm going to end this now. I love you. Remember, I'm still here. Bye byes.
» DarknessPrevails on 2004-03-21 02:47:58
Blah
I'm not suppose to contact you in any way or form. But fuck, I just can't resist. Let's see, where to start. I'm glad you're feeling again. It's never good to be apathetic. Congrats on getting the highest grade. I told you you were smart. And you are most likely smarter then that kid in your physics class, so I don't know why you're so amzed. Hehe. You can go anywhere you wanna go, be anything you want to be, if you just apply yourself. I miss Ms. Ryan. And, your mom doesn't hate you. I don't know how much you know and what she told you, but she's only doing what she "thinks" is best for you. She wouldn't have done what she did if she didn't love you. Anyways, I just wanted you to know that I still love you, and I miss you a lot. And I'm still here for you. If there's anything you need, all you gotta do is pick up the phone and call. For what's it worth, I'm sorry for getting you in trouble with the whole skipping thing. But anyways, cheer up. This isn't over until we (Not someone else) say it's over. The only people that can break our bond of friendship is ourselves. I don't want that to happen. Do you? I don't want to let you go. Think about it this way Priscilla. This is just something to prepare us for college cause quite obviously we will not be going to the same college and we both would need to learn how to live without each other. We're just getting a head start. I don't even know if you want this friendship to continue, I don't know what you're thinking, or how you feel. But I just wanted you to know that, in my mind and in my heart, you're still my truest friend. Speaking of college, I've got something to say about that. I'm going to end this now. I love you. Remember, I'm still here. Bye byes.
» DarknessPrevails on 2004-03-21 02:48:11
P.S
My comp is fucked and I didn't mean to post it twice. But anyhow, good luck on rocketry. I hope Berkner wins! =P
» DarknessPrevails on 2004-03-21 02:49:43
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