Self made superstitions
I have a friend who lives in another country. His grandfather passed and it brought me the unpleasant nostalgic sensation of the passing of my grandmother two years ago. Funny how we never really get over it. The thing that striked me most was that he was relating how his other grandfather died 6 yrs ago. Where he is, in 6th grade u graduate then you graduate again out of highschool in 12th grade. This is his senior year.. It just made me think about how I had some sort of superstition that bad things happen near my bday. Winter2003 three days before my bday my grandmother passed. Winter 2004 a day after my aunt passed. If something happens this year I will be devastated. I will not know what to believe..

Hustler for a positive cause?
My guyfriend is not wealthy. His family isn't doing that great financially.. he's been stealing shit to sell for some extra cash. For lunch money and to treat his little brother to things. He doesn't want his little brother to know the family is losing money. I don't understand how misfortune picks people. I fear for him because we've had a few friends get caught for shoplifting and stuff.. iunno. I don't approve but I guess he doesn't really have a choice since gas prices are getting high and he doesn't really have a ride for a job. I mean i have a couple of friends in this situation but this is different. Not because he's my exboyfriend but because he's a nice guy. I just see him changing for the worse.. I see it in his actions, his expressions, his typing. I know him that well.

Today walking to my locker after school I saw this little asian baby boy with this really round head. He almost looked animated because in some way he was a perfect. He was a perfect, healthy, joyful, fearless and flawless child. He wobbled out of the hallway almost like he was flying and he screeched with laughter ringing with delight for seeing so many people. For some reason seeing this small boy ignorant of the sullen expressions of those teenagers in the hall(which one day he will become one of them) with eyes filled with amusement for everything around him brought me out of my gray day. I forgot it was as ordinary day and saw how the day as an adventure. For a moment I forgot about everything I knew. Everything I've learned from growing up. I forgot about everything bad about my day and bad about the world. For I saw life in his eyes.

Did the little kid look like Omi from shaolin showdown? I really like your writing.. and I think it's weird(although I understand) how you can pick up on someone's thoughts just by the way he types.
» Dilated on 2005-09-20 05:12:34

just droppin by...
I have that sad feeling too wheneva I talk bout my grandparents who passed..and since it was 2 yrs ago. I guess they stay in your thoughts forever...so they are never really gone. :) I think it is human to protect the ones you love the most even if it means stealing and putting yourself in danger... Tk care I hope u find joy in every day.. :)
» von-nation on 2005-09-21 01:39:59

Hi again! You have good music on ur site.. :) Where do you get them from? I'm such a blur when it comes to blogs..hehe..thanks!
» von-nation on 2005-09-21 01:42:27

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