"I'm just tired of losing people.." He tells me.

What do you say to that? I didn't know so I didn't say anything. Most of the time I said "yeah" or "mmhmm" but what kind of comfort could I give a young man going through a rough time in his life. He lost his godson and he lost his homie who was like a brother to him in a shooting. Gas station robbery. Shot in the chest and the head. Cruelty, life's special innocence removal service was at the top of it's game when this young man arrived too late. The gunshots have echoed to silence and a life dear to him had been taken before he could get there. His god son had cancer. A little boy who wanted to grow up to be like him. The little boy had kidney failure. The boy's real parents were no match but he was and so was his mother. "If only I was at the hospital.." he regrets. "In a few minutes he was gone. He couldn't hold on anymore." I heard pain taint the tone in his voice. I'm not Christian let alone religious but I wanted to tell him maybe God has bigger plans for him than to let him give his kidney to the boy. That maybe his grandson had bigger purposes to fulfill in his next life or maybe he was in his life for a shortwhile to touch his heart and teach him something. Lesson learnt: Tomorrow is never a guarantee.

And on top of that he recently broke up with his girlfriend. Poor guy.. He's carrying a lot of grief. Perhaps he's given these hardships to overcome so that he'll be strong for whatever endeavors he may encounter in the future.

Random thought//
What do you think is worse? Being raped of innocence or getting your heart broken? [[Err.. maybe this isn't as traumatizing for a guy as it would be for a girl. Not meaning to be sexist or anything ]]I think getting your heart broken is worse. Most of the time girls who were raped rise above and even though their innocence is broken they become wiser and stronger. I don't think broken hearts ever completely mend. Especially if it was real love. Not saying I can define love but let's say something that would resemble love to someone that is way more than an infatuation. I think with broken hearts they have fear to encounter the next obstacle and rape victims may be haunted but they don't let it hold them back. Instead they keep that close as a reminder to remember how far they've come and how they can overcome anything. That they're survivors and perhaps some of the broken hearted think of theirselves as victims. Just a thought.

That is such a sad story. My eyes got all watery. Tomorrow is not guaranteed, for sure. That's why you gotta live as best you can, so you won't need tomorrow. I think being raped of innocence is worse, honestly. Hearts break all the time, and if love comes your way, your heart is mended again. Its a process that works out eventually. But innocence can never return. Once its taken or lost, its gone forever.
» juiCyy on 2005-08-16 11:30:55

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