Well.. it's been a while. Christmas for me was rather interesting. My father, as always, had to work [Disney World never takes a day off]. Some friends of mine came over and we ended up leaving to see Aliens Vs. Predator Christmas night. It was a pretty good movie with amazing special effects. Afterwords, I crashed at Tylers house along with Adam and didn't really come home for a few days unless I needed something and would stop by. Ever occasion noone was home so I hadn't seen immediate family in days. It did not bother me at all. I've been hanging out with my boys all winter break and Wouldn't change it for the world. I love my boys.

The parents have been disappointing me, espescially today. My mother recently had yet again.. another back surgery. This time to remove the hardware from her spine. Its been about two weeks now and shes healing very painfully, but very well. Now, She dragged herself out of bed and crawled to the little Baptist church on Columbia St. to see my Christmas Concert performace. She was in unbareable pain and I told he to stay home and rest, but she wouldn't miss it for the world. This morning however, she didn't feel like coming to church. After telling me for days she would come and she was so excited... she didn't feel like getting up this morning. Needless to say how disappointed I was to speak with her after church over the phone. Both my mother and father began yelling, no screaming at me for various things that were unimportant and insignificant. I've grown hard to my mothers hurtful words, however I hate it when my father screams at me for things that don't have a meaning at all. For the fact of screaming at me period. So.. nothing has really changed with my relationship with my family.

I have come to accept that various friends have abandoned me. Why? When I confessed I was struggling with my sexuality they held my hand and helped me through this horrible and confussing time period. When they expressed their flaws I never turned away. Yet when I stand up and except Jesus as my lord and savior they fade away. Something that has made me happy and given me a reason I can trust to survive in this world... they walk away. They've become cruel to me. Yet I still stand strong with friends I've come to grow bonds with within the church. I feel this is the right decision.. I need this.

I am a proud Christian and I continue to stand tall!

Woohoo for standing for in what you believe in, even though sometimes it's tough!

I find a lot of the time that I will readily terminate friendships if I feel it's not good for me. I know it sounds selfish, but the last thing I need or want is people causing me problems in my life, you know?
» ikimashokie on 2007-12-30 08:30:20

if friends don't stay at ur side no matter what happens, they are not true friends just some fair-weathered ones...
» renaye on 2007-12-31 07:07:26

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