I finally realized something…that’s only taken me about six months to realize. I like guys, but I don’t want to be in a relationship with any of them. I like to flirt and laugh and hang out with them, but as soon as the topic of commitment comes up, I run away. I really don’t want a boyfriend; I’d rather just have fun with a bunch of guys then have to worry about making one of them happy. Plus, I think I’m scared to death of getting hurt again like I did with Ryan and Matt. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t regret a second I ever spent with Ryan but, I aint ready for another relationship like that…and I’m especially not ready for the pain that’s going to come right along with it. I am a strong girl and can put up with a lot of shit, but…if that can be avoided, it will be.

ooh, something that's been bothering me. People who are having sex as teens, think about this. Are you prepared to make a decision on whether or not to keep the baby if you get pregnant? bc if you're not prepared to answer that, you shouldn't be having sex. you need to be mature enough to make adult decisions before you do adult things. yea so don't fucking complain to me about being knocked up. how about grow up and dont do things without considering the consequences...

But, on to a better subject…last night Sara and I went skating and left earlier and walked to Charlie’s. tee hee, on the way we stopped at Subways and got subs…and the lady working didn’t even make us pay. Haha…it was pretty funny. Once we got to Charlie’s, we were playing pool and then this guy asked if he could play the winner…and then like 10 others were playing with us. They were all pretty hott…I can’t remember hardly ne of there names…Brandon, Carlos, Freddy, Josh, and a bunch of other guys. Haha…it was fun. Even tho Sara and I beat Josh and he still thinks he won. Haha, s’all good tho.

and an even better subject, i chilled with Joshy today. it was fun...we talked...i really miss tony tho. i wish he'd move back but not until hes 18. sighers...about 6 months left.

wel, fuck it i'm done writing.

hey hey
thats kool that you didnt have to pay for the subways.. mmmm. im getting hungry now.. anyways.. whats up?
» djjester on 2004-03-14 11:52:30

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