when nothing jus seems to be going right. I couldn't get my hair straight in the back, my hoodie was making it staticy, we had a different bus this morning and the seats were so bumpy that it skipped my cd player, Jen didn't come to school, I talk to Jamie and Tim in the morning, late getting to 1st peirod. That was jus about 2 and a half hrs. Class time, I hate it. I can't stay awake...earth and space sucks. My brain keeps drifting...Second peirod, auto cad. Took me like half the class to get one drawing done...but atleast I had Derek, Tyler, and Jacob to keep me alive and awake. haha, Going back down to the school I was walking with Tim and said soemthing aobut falling on the ice...and sure enough, I did. It was embarassing but, yano me. :) I'm not one to care...hahaha, I just laughed it off.

Then comes the sad time...me and Jamie kinda figured out what we wanted and as much as I know I have to let go of that boy, it hurt like hell. We decided we're better off friends for now...maybe we'll get back together in the future, maybe not. If we try things again tho, it's jus going to end up ruining our friendship to the point where we're like...me and Ryan are...and neither one of us want that. I love that boy tho, but sometimes...you jus gotta let go.

Things will be ok, I now know that. There's no sense in me worrying about who likes me and who doesn't, whose mad at me and who isn't, what I have and what I don't have...fuck it all, when I'm 18, I'm outta here. Do you think I'll ever come back to see ne of these assholes in Troy? Nope...once I'm gone, it's forever. I hate this area, these people, this bullshit...its all so dumb. WHY THE FUCK CANT EVERYONE JUST GROW UP AND STOP WORRYING ABOUT EVERYONE ELSE'S LIFE. I hate you, I hate you, I hate you...

and to the few, I love you...

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