... about writing an entry is figuring out what the title is going to be. Hence the reason why I used so many numbers over the last month.

Today started out shitty. I felt so tired/drained that I seriously could have just cried. Since I was at work, however, I didn't get the opportunity. So instead of crying, I broke out my defense mechanism and started being antisocial and snippy with the people whom I had to come in contact with. It's not exactly the best way to deal with a problem; I admit that, but it's better than crying while on the clock.

Toward the end of the shift, I started feeling ever so slightly better, but as soon as I got home, the feelings came rushing back and I just felt emotionally exhausted. I started to almost cry again. I called Jacob and he went for a jog with me. He was nice enough to get out of bed so that I wouldn't have to go alone. I told him he could go back to sleep, but I think he could tell in my voice that I needed someone to be with me.

The jog helped a little more. I figured out that I need to work on my pacing more. I am apparently improving enough that my body automatically wants to go faster, but then I get winded more quickly. If I keep my pace level right from the get go, I should be able to continue on without getting winded as quickly. Thursday I will test this theory.

I'm in the middle of watching Bones right now, but I paused it so that I could write this. I may go to sleep after I finish watching the episode {I can already feel myself starting to fall asleep} and I didn't want to risk missing out on writing an entry.

The weather is going through the same kind of mood swing I am ... it's gone from raining to cloudy to windy to sunny back to cloudy and windy and back to rainy. I think the sun came out like 6 times today. It's ridiculous.

Anywho, I think I will finish watching the episode and depending on how I feel either go to bed super early or play a game to pass the time and go to bed early. I'll let you know what ended up happening.

Until tomorrow NuTang. . .

:(

I'm sorry you were having a hard day. Hopefully the jog and some sleep will make you feel better. And David Boreanaz can't hurt, riiiight?
» Amelie on 2013-02-05 08:05:05

i hope u r feeling better. it's great to have someone there for u. i only have myself to go through difficult moments. people say we have guardian angels and spirit guides. i sometimes wonder what do they feel when they see us breaking down.
» renaye on 2013-02-06 03:00:13

I hope you can sleep well tonight and tomorrow there's more "sunshine" :)
» Midnight on 2013-02-06 09:12:12

I never got into bones myself... but i like david boreanez from angel
» undisputed on 2013-02-06 10:25:54

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