Well, I am going to KFMA Day, but not with Katie. Not with Justin either. A couple girls that I work with are going and I'm going with them. That's about the only good news I got today.

I'm supposed to be having a nice evening with Justin right now, but he got a phone call from his mom during dinner telling him that a couple tornadoes ripped through his home town and his grandparents are missing. As soon as we left the restaurant {which wasn't even that good; we're not going back} he dropped me off at my place and left to rush home.

I think I'm making a mistake. I'm starting to fall for him. I'm starting to get attached. Ya know how I know this? I started crying cuz I was hoping tonight would be a good night. I was sincerely upset that I wasn't able to spend the time with Justin that I was anticipating.

I can understand that his family is uber important to him. And I hope that his grandparents and his friends are okay, but ... I dunno. Is is wrong for me to want to spend time with him right now? I know that he probably wouldn't be much company. Maybe I'd understand better if I was as close to my family as he is with his. I still want him to be with me right now. There's absolutely nothing he can do about his family in Kansas when he's here in Arizona. Why do I feel like its wrong for me to be thinking this way?

My eyes hurt right now. I know its from crying. I can't even cry anymore. My eyes are all dried out. I didn't even cry that long.

Ugh! I hate being a woman sometimes. We're too damn emotional. I'll update later if {and when} I find out about Justin's family.

EDIT:
Justin's family is all okay. His grandfather was the last person they needed to get in touch with {he doesn't have a cell phone so it was proving a bit difficult} They finally got in touch with his grandfather though, at the senior citizen home helping out people. Justin said that over 70% of the town was destroyed by the storm.

It definitely sucks that women are so emotional. Hope he hears from his grandparents.
» ikimashokie on 2007-05-05 02:24:44

You may be the only person I know who utilizes " uber " from their vocabulary.

I don't think it's necessarily right or wrong to want to spend time with him despite the stuff that happened to his family. It isn't an issue of good or bad.. it's just how you feel, 'ya know? Can't help how you feel.
» Dilated on 2007-05-05 02:58:46

aww... how sad. Dont cry anymore. Use cucumber slices on your eyelids to reduce the swelling...
» kkama67 on 2007-05-05 03:10:40

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