Man, it has been forever since I've last updated my journal. The past few weeks have been an intense ride, with tonight being the culmination of the weeks of stress/lack of sleep/sacrifice of health/fun/happiness/awesome experience and whatnot. I definitely gave my all throughout my pledging process, and wanted to be where I was more and more as I got more and more into the fraternity. You know, I wanted to pledge last semester but my GPA was a shitty 2/100ths of a point below the minimum requirement. However, when I look at it, I'm in a totally different place with my life right now, speaking generally and speaking in any specific context, and I sincerely feel that everything happens for a reason. I'm definitely glad that I went through this process now, because I feel that I've gotten so much out of it, and I'm to a point where I feel I've gotten the most I could get out of it, definitely more than I could have last semester even. I'm completely happy with the choices I've made, and the dedication I put into the process, and that I am where I am right now. It's awesome.

So, yes...long time no entries. Depending on how you look at it, you could sadly or in a kind of cool way summarize my life in the past few weeks as an almost regimented lifestyle that consisted of rather meticulously planning out most every hour of each day. The pledging process, with the effort I wanted to put into it, would amount to a challenging 4 credit class (aka, not Ken Burns teaches you Jazz via Rislow, but something more along the lines of MRB). Outside of my various Phi Mu Alpha activities, I've spent considerable amounts of time on school work, most recently being my recording tech II project (which I think it's turning out pretty awesome). Sadly, I've gotten somewhat lax with some things, like really studying and absorbing the new material in New Testament Greek. I love learning languages and exploring true meaning and whatnot, but I was full-on devoting myself to my big projects, pledging being a primary, of course. Obviously I'm gonna pick up the slack from here on, and thankfull I'm aware enough of how I'm doing in all areas to not let things go. And outside of Phi Mu Alpha and schoolwork, I have been spending time with Brooke of course. She's been very cool and supportive of me throughout the process, which I appreciate, especially since she definitely had her doubts and concerns about me getting into. I just enjoy that we're total retards about 95% of the time. It keeps the collegiate life fresh, and free of the mundane familiarities of the drama and stress that seems to pervail most other students' lives. I am more than thankful to have her input and inspiration for such things and building the fort, arrogantly mimicking Caboose, arrogantly drinking in the common room, blending the use of both wit and childish behavior to retaliate against the staunch republican asshole(s), going to hell for all too often acting/speaking/etc. retarded, and so on.

I'll be honest, I'm certainly not saying I didn't enjoy and get a lot out of the process, but I'm glad it's over. I'm looking forward to having the time to relax and just pick up a Dan Brown book for a couple hours or something. Or better yet, have the time to sit around and update my journal, listen to music for a while, etc. I'm glad Thanksgiving break's coming up, cuz I could definitely use the down time. And, since I just read his journal, I think I need to go down to Crossley's if he's goin into the Army. I was planning on going to at least Harrisburg over break anyway, so I'm sure something will be quasi-planned there. Anyway, it's already past 5am, so it'd probably be best to sleep. I feel less like this is a journal entry than it being kind of an update e-mail or something to whomever reads my journal. Well, regardless, I'm alive and well, and I'm very happy with how things are right now. I'll soon have some time on my hands, and I plan on getting back to some of the little things I like to do.

It's awesome
that you are happy where you are right now! I am glad everything is going well for you! Congrats! =)
» kshaffer on 2004-11-20 12:39:28

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» rmarino on 2004-11-23 12:13:05

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