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"The more you sweat during training, The less you bleed during battle" -Navy SEALs "Prey on the old, and your a coward. Prey on the young, and your pathetic. Prey on the weak, and your even weaker. Prey on my friends, and your dead!" -Kushiel "Faith without doubt leads to moral ignorance, the eternal pratfall of the religiously convinced." -Joe Klein Kushiel's Box | Dont Know What To Say 5/15/04 9:51 AM I'm feeling depressed, once more. It seems like much of these days I feel this way. I'm in and out of bad moods and good moods. One minute I am happy and goofin off, the next I flip out for no reason and curl up into a ball and cry..alone...in the dark. God, It seems no matter how many people I surround myself with, I always manage to feel alone. I feel so empty..Do I really have nothing left? Am I actually devoid of any feelings capable of lasting longer than a day? I always manage to piss people off and push them away from me. I'm just that much of a fuck-up. Like my mom tells me everyday, "One day, your gonna wake up and realize your alone, realize no one loves you, no one ever did love you, and no one ever will." My mom makes a point. I try not to believe it when she tells me things like that. But its kinda hard not to,they eat away at me. They are like a cobweb covering all the dark corners of my mind, where all the things she's ever said to me reside. "Your worthless, I don't even know why you were born", "You don't deserve to live", "Why don't you just slit your wrists and get it over with?", "Your a stupid bitch", "Your so fucking dumb, how can you stand yourself?"..........Now, these are simply things I repeat over in my head everyday, as I walk through the halls at school, as I sit in my class taking notes, as I talk to my friends, as I kiss the one who says he loves me, and as I lay in bed everynight...and cry myself to sleep wondering if all these people I know, think the same way......... 1 Comments. day after day
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