After last night, I'm not too sure if I like Raquel or not. She was like, "Well if I was you, there are plenty of other boyfriends out there that do more." So, basically she thinks I should break up with Nick. That will never happen. Not ever. So does this mean that if my dad lost his job and had a hard time getting a new one, and lost everything, she'd leave him? Cuz there are plenty of other boyfriends out there for her... If that how she really feels, that love can't conquer... I don't like her being with my dad then. And last night, she was like, "I don't know, I'm not her mom..." All that was going through my head, was, "You're damn right you're not my mom. You'll never be my mom, all you'll be is my dad's girlfriend." It pissed me off so much. I hope she doesn't have plans on ever trying to be a mom figure to me. Because she's not and she won't be. And anybody that thinks I should leave Nick, is obviously not supportive of me, so they don't mean shit to me.

Dad made me mad this morning when he was talking about him and Raquel. He dissed on me for sleeping with 7 guys, but then he goes, "I know what Raquel and I do is wrong. I'm not fully divorced, and I'm not married to Raquel. But I don't care." Then what makes him think I should care, when he doesn't even care? Besides, I'm marrying Nick. Nobody fucking believes me, but they'll see. They'll definately believe me when it happens and my ass moves out. Yup yup. Oh man, I love Nick, I can't wait till I can start my new life with him. Hypocrisy... All of it...

I can't wait to just go kick it with the boys tonight. It's kinda funny how close I am to all of them. I mean, I can totally see myself still chillin with these guys 20 years from now. Even Mike, we're not close or anything, but one night, I was frustrated, I'm not sure why, but I was laying down, and Mike comes up to me and goes, "What's wrong?" I was like, "Nothin, just tired." And he was like, "You can't lie to me, tell me what's wrong." I don't remember what it was about though...

Congrats! You are one of the lucky 5 people I'vepicked to comment on! Hmm, did you tell your dad about how you're feeling? If he doesn't care, that's just bs. Seriously, he should care. I really hope you can do something which makes you relieved from this anger that's building up. Nice moving quotes on top.
» Ajibalaji89 on 2004-06-24 10:36:50

hiya!!! oh, i agree with ajibalaji89, did u tell ur daddy abt how u feel??? Anyhow , I hope u can slove ur problems soon.....
» pandora on 2004-06-26 12:51:25

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