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I guess somewhere out there in the region it must be a fucking drought or dry season hur..cos it seems all the rain in the region have migrated to singapore liao..hah.

been raining for abt 48 hrs non stop since saturday night. all this rain has made the air nice and cool and great for sleeping, resulting in my sleeping almost the whole of today away after gyming in the morning..

but wtf..it has also spoiled my other plans for gg out.. say, for instance, outdoor stuff like bballing and swimming.. and even if i weren't out doing sports, i wouldn't like to go out in this wet and cold crap, getting my feet and clothes wet for no reason and having to lug ard an umbrella everywhere i go, which i will tend to forget to bring back whenever i sit down somewhere to la kopi or eat, or even while on the train.

some might ask what kind of a soldier am i, scared to go out in the rain..well i dont care la, i really hate the feeling of getting my feet wet la, soldier or not. anyway, my cheong sua days are long over liao, so all the more no reason for me to go out of the way and make myself wet, cold and miserable like last time.

fuck, i dont like rainy days la, it makes u unable to go out, and have to sit at home all day and listen to the sound of the water splashing down on the windows and the pavements downstairs. and when that happens, i will tend to start thinking alot of things that i do not want to think abt, like where im gg to be 10, 20 years down the road? whats the afterlife like? is there really such a thing or even sth like reincarnation and deja vu from the previous life?...and all sorts of similar rubbishy things.

i esp dont like to think abt the far future or the past, simply becos i like to live in the present and not huan lo a hell lot abt the past or the unforseenable future; i think its really just a waste of brain cells..and i dont have alot to spare..given my short attention span.

well, mayb some will call me aimless, having no goals or dreams. but i've come to realise that its no pt having so many so called dreams, goals or whatever when u only have so much time or limited power in ur hands to accomplish anything. so why not take it slow and live one step at a time?

arghh, here it comes again, the stupid thoughts..fucking rain.

nuff abt the rain, sidetrack abit to gripe abt the old woman, aka my mom; who seems to have found all the more reason to nag at me since im stuck at home the whole day. moment she comes home she HAS to come ask me what i did for the day, how come on leave also nua whole day nair go out do sth...blah blah blah..

cb la, i on leave, go out or not, do what fuck shit, also must tell u every minute detail har? like that ar boh u become me live my life for me want not? really, for the life for me, and its 21 years to date ald, i can nv understand her; her fixation with other ppl's stuff, and how the fuck she can be so kaypo to mind others' business when she got more than enough on her hands ald.

really la, wtf she want? i stay at home she buay song. i go gym nv tell her she buay song. i go sit at the void deck la kopi or go out to drink with friends until late late she also buay song. like that tell me...how den she will be song? must everything follow her way, listen to her bullshit and accept it like i got no thoughts of my own is it? and i wont even start on the tiao kang and insult bit, its ald been covered before.

nb la, sometimes its not i dont want to do sth abt my life, its circumstances dont allow can? when the hell will she understand...but i seriously think she nv will la, so why am i saying so much..probably cos im just damn tu lan with her, and also frustrated with my own life.

sian la..