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yup im back, after a month of absence, im back to gripe abt my miserable existence in hendon camp again. hah.

first things first, ever since i got notification tt i had downgraded like 2 weeks ago, i tot i was home free and in for the good life, meaning i was juz all ready to be posted out and in the meanwhile could juz ba long long everyday.

i was so damn wrong.

seriously, i have no idea what is the fucking problem with the officers in my company, as in they especially like to tekan those of us who have long term medical status, are on pending downgrade or have already downgraded, along with those who keep reporting sick for nothing juz to get status to siam trg.

they juz grp the whole lot of us under 'att bs' and make us do all sorts of saikang..and when there's trg, we have to sit in and observe..in full battle order no less.

alright, i understand if they wan to tekan those ppl who are feigning sickness to siam trg, but what has tt gotta do with us ppl who have genuine medical history and conditions tt dun allow us to be part of the trg troops? i dun think its fucking fair at all to grp us all together and tekan us all the time.

and what's with hanging on to us and making us do guard duty every other day when the rest are outfield? are u really so desperate to squeeze us dry before we get posted out from under ur fucking jurisdiction or do u really juz derive sick pleasure from watching ppl like us suffer for no reason?

and did i mention the insult bit? getting labelled shit and trash and other names when we are juz sitting there and dun deserve such crap? juz the other day, one of the det cmdrs labelled those of us sitting at the grandstand observing the trg as a 'useless pile of shit'. what the fuck is ur problem man? do u really think u have the right to insult us juz becoz we aren't fighting fit like u are?

worse still, this guy is not even a full fledged commando yet. he's from some infantry unit who volunteered for sof but flunked the selection. come on man, if ur really so good, u would be joining the current sof course platoon and not be stuck in the company line doing essentially the same trg as the rest of them but only as a det cmdr. goddamn! u haven't even been to airborne course when most of those labelled 'shit' by u have ald done so and cleared their required jumps! in some sense, if we were not on medical status or downgraded/ pending downgrade, we would essentially be more qualified as a commando than u! fucker!

and when we bring up the issue to the csm during aar session, he juz passed it off as a joke and let the whole company laugh abt it and ttz it. seriously, even though we dun deserve any high respect from u as normal trainees, we at least should deserve our dignity and rights to nt be labelled any-oh-how and be insulted as such. speaking of which, how do u expect us to respect and have faith in ur command when u dun even show us the simplest form of it?!

and the next burning issue is the gpmg muzzle lost during last week's tekong trip. why make us go back over the weekend, and threaten to burn all our subsequent weekdays and offdays if we cannot manage to recover it? seriously there is no logic in doing such a thing. tekong is nt someplace where only commandos train, lots of other units train there daily. how do u expect us to find something so small like a gpmg muzzle after 11 fucking days? its like looking for a needle in a hay stack! do u seriously want to recover it so badly or do u juz wan to tekan us and burn our weekends before the brunei trip next sunday?

tt aside, we did manage to find the blasted thing this morning when we went back. call it a stroke of luck, a miracle or a gift from the gods, wadever. my point is, if we did not manage to get it back, would we really be subjected to the torture of gg back to bloody tekong every weekend and offday before and after brunei to punish us for our carelessness; when a replacement for the fucking thing can juz be indented from the alb and be done with?

seriously, i dunno how they think..the commanders and esp the officers. the way they run the company is so fucked up and they dare tell us we are fucked up when they share half the responsibility for fucking up the whole company! wtf..i really dunno what to expect anymore, juz hope to be posted away from them asap.

fucked up lah.