Change...something that everyone and everything is bound to go thru many times in a lifetime...something so complicated that we sometimes dun even understand it ourselves~

Recently, I read in a friend's blog that she's changing, and for the worse too, I shall not go into details, but from this, I have come to realise the significance of change myself.

Throughout my 19 years of life, I have changed alot, more often than not for the worse, this is a fact. As such, I actually want to make changes to myself for the better, but there are just too many things to do at the same time that I have actually managed to confuse and stressed up myself up juz thinking bout them...the more I think, the more sian I get, so I better stop thinking anymore and juz do it.

For a start, its definitely my AP that I gotta change..Although this does not come as very fresh news, I finally realise the impact of my AP on my daily life and most importantly on work and entry into its society in the not-so-far-off future. Time and time again, I have told myself to change, yet time and time again I have failed...the answer to which I have totally no idea at all.

I have also realised that I have done many things in during my life that I shouldn't be proud of at all, yet I do not yet have any much proud accomplishments yet to counter these negative elements of guilt in me...the answer, I told myself, is to change, aspects of my life, how I talk, conduct myself, etc. Yet , am I able to accomplish all that I set out to do? I seriously have not much confidence in that.

Hur hur, I seem to be rambling on incoherently the more I write, so I think I shld stop for now, after all, I can't even recall what drove me to write this entry. But one thing is for certain, I'll definitely change, and to a better version of my current self. So there, to all my friends out there, look out for a better me yar!! LOL.

Alucard Von Nosferatu Hellsing

haha!!! its gd to noe tat u actually want 2 change yr attitude. well... my suggestion is tink before u say anyting i guess. haha!!! but then again... its always easier said than done! i shld wait n see whether u changed for the betta!
» BITCH on 2004-08-07 03:51:34

yup good to change.. then can win her heart too
» Koban on 2004-08-07 10:56:40

Have confidence in yourself in accomplishing the things you want to, and u will be able to accomplish them. with regards to changing ur attitude for the better, i think it's not so much of whether u can or cannot it's more like whether you want to or not, whether you can be bothered with it or not. all the best to your attempt to change for the better...
» PeiLin on 2004-08-08 10:48:00

Have confidence in yourself in accomplishing the things you want to, and u will be able to accomplish them. with regards to changing ur attitude for the better, i think it's not so much of whether u can or cannot it's more like whether you want to or not, whether you can be bothered with it or not. all the best to your attempt to change for the better...
» PeiLin on 2004-08-08 10:48:02

har.. thanks for the encouragement ya... but nic, whose the her ur talking abt? why do i not have any idea at all...
» HellSinG on 2004-08-08 01:27:03

u mean there's alot of 'her's? lolz
» merrick on 2004-08-09 03:38:06

kk, i get ur pt, no pt playing dumb after all...lolz
» HellSinG on 2004-08-10 11:48:10

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