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The inevidable. why do people change and i seem to find them growing farther and farther apart from me? it's like they change into people i just don't like to be around and then our friendship ceases to exist. it seems that happens to me everytime i get close enough to call someone my best friend...and then they go and change and we go our separate ways. i mean it's not like i still can't hang..it's just that the person they've changed into annoys me and that makes me mad cuz it didn't used to be. like the said one thing once...and now are acting the exact way the protested against just it seems yesterday. and i can't stand hpyocytes. they're conformists. i don't but right now it seems that everyone is changing on me...and i'm not catching up. in fact it feels as if i'm staying right here...and that i've stayed right here for my whole life. i mean i know i've changed but i seem so slow in comparison to the people i seem to be losing. maybe it's me who's doing all the changing. what if i'm the one who changes into someone who they can't stand? what if i'm the problem. or maybe no one's the problem cuz that's how they're supposed to be. but it's scary cuz i'm afraid in no time at all i'm going to lose all of my friends...and god if that happened i'd be so sad. cuz i can already see some of them changing...and it's still tolerable and i can still love them and hang and all...but slowly if they going down that path our friendship is going to suffer...cuz it erks me to see the changes cuz what they are shanging into erks me and it makes me not even want to hang out with them, as if to try and preserve what was once them. preserve....that's a scary to use but it's perfect. ergh it sucks to know this. i'm sad about it.

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—GHETTO_THUG on 2003-07-17 04:56:28

hey...
ya know, I've felt that before, it's just something you have to just work through, and you always can't let a friendship end. Like there are times when I feel so distanted from thuystar and gooberkim. But we always come back to each other. It's just sometimes people get carried away in their own life, and they forget. You have to remind them.I guess. I totally feel ya. Makes ya feel kinda lonely huh? Yeah, and you gotta change your way of thinking... but dont worry, you'll find friends that'll be worth it =) take care! hope you're okay! dont be sad either or i'll pick your nose =)
—karendipity on 2003-07-17 08:28:18

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