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happy 3 day anniversary!
well.. i mean.. i like to rant too.. it's good for the soul.. and you pretty much pinpointed what i wanted to say in a new journal entry about how people think we're too stupid to know what love and lust is. If you try and there's no feelings for that person, then you don't fucking love them.. you may have, but it's over and it died. if you just had to work at loving someone you could force two men who are completely straight to work so hard at loving each other and it'd happen.. all relationships would never fail if it were that easy.. you have to want to work at it and to want to work at it, you have to love that person enough to see through thick and thin.
» ThisCharmingMan on 2007-01-21 06:03:16

oooh...
i know how you feel...and its frustrating. follow your heart, hun. you owe it to yourself, and you deserve it. dont let anyone tell you its wrong...nothing done with the heart is wrong...ever.

good luck to you both.
» invisibleinkling on 2007-01-21 06:03:25

you know what....
everything you just said there i agree with...i never had anything against alex....i never even met the guy....but I really hope all of that anger isn't directed towards me....all I was doing was getting out my emotions....you know? the emotions that I'm left with after all that has happened??? I think you of all people can understand how I still feel about all of this...as for everybody else...I agree with what you said...I never told anyone to say anything to you...of course some of my friends may be upset at what happened...but they really have no right to yell at you...I may be heartbroken over the situation...but I can't tell you how you feel...and I can't blame you for how you feel....all I really know is how I feel...and how you felt once...there was a time where you and I were really happy together and alex wasn't in the picture...but hey...that time is over apparently....the bottom line is...I will always be your friend...and I always want you to be happy....even if it means taking a hit...maybe even for the rest of my life
» Rip-Tide-Prophecy on 2007-01-21 10:52:02

hey christine i never meant to hurt you like that and i never meant to judge. I always support a woman who has found herself and that is all I wanted for you. You're completely right and I owe up to my mistakes and misjudgements. What one calls a spark may be another man's light, it's like the term dating... it just doesn't exist anymore in the context it was supposed to. I am sorry that I assumed that it was used in the everyday way and not in the way it used to be used. What IIIII mean by spark was not what youuu mean and that is where we had the crossroads of ideas. Also, you're right, and really it is non of my business saying anything about anyone else's relationship... I guess that just comes along with when one of the people you are friends with calls out for some sort of guidance and the other doesn't then what would you do? Ignore it? I am not taking sides although it may seem like it. I guess I fell victim to oiling to squeeky wheel. It's hard you know, especially when you actually care about the people and not the actions involved to not try understand something they are struggling with. maybe it's my personality but maybe it's because I too never got much input from anyone on my life problems basically because I never asked... so everyone, including me goes running to help the one who does ask questions instead of keeping it all inside. Heck, neither way is better and I don't know as though you fully understand what I am trying to say or are going to just get more offended. Finally, I am glad, like my situation used to be, that one of you found happiness. I am assured that Mike will too and I guess that is all I was really trying to let him know.
» xXxshegzxXx on 2007-01-22 12:49:10


i haven't put too much input into this drama, i've been mostly just a listening ear. you, mike, and alex are all old enough to make your own decisions. it will have been a bumpy road, but everything will be fine, and everyone will be happy again- eventually. good luck to everyone.
» PureRidiculous on 2007-01-22 07:41:42

iiii'm not gonna lie. i was one of those people that got angry with you and didn't let you tell your side... and you're right, i was slanted in what i thought, mostly because i had heard the story from him that night. it's just hard seeing a friend so hurt that he's not angry... i felt i had to say some things, so i did, and i don't regret saying them. i'm sorry if i hurt you by saying anything. i guess it's just how i saw it.

i hope you know i am, your friend. i was your friend before mike was your boyfriend, i hope we stay that way.

cheers,
sank.
» thaitanic on 2007-01-23 11:24:08

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