I believe one of the hardest things in the world is to tell the truth. Not just to yourself even though many times that step is hard to make as well. But to tell someone you care for the truth about your feelings knowing it will hurt them….
But it’s best to be honest right? It’s not fair to lead people on… And just because my feelings are different, that shouldn’t mean they were true in the past.
In case people didn’t know I am an emotional roller coaster and I try very hard to control my feelings. But it seems that every time I do that I just find myself at the top of a hill at the point where you loose your breath and your stomach I about 5 feet above your head while you are falling down what you think is the steepest hill on earth.
As the years go on I realize that every new hill seems steeper then the last and so I just remind myself that it will all be okay in the end.
That cliché saying “time heals all wounds” is very true.
I never mean to hurt people. But I know I do…the words “I’m sorry” don’t seem to mean enough to make up for it though.
In the end I know I made the right choice. I don’t want to hear that in time I will realize what I mistake I made, and that later in life I will regret my decision. I have made more decisions in my life then many people realize. And I really don’t regret anything I have done. I believe if people want to make me feel bad for the choices I have made, then they were never really my friend in the first place. Or in time I will see that no one could love me as much…. No one knows how much anyone loves me except themselves.
I won’t be sorry for being happy.

Love is more than a feeling;
it's a state of mind.
- Lisa Grude –

The way to love anything
is to realize that it might be lost.
- G. K. Chesterton –

Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all."

"Some of us think holding on makes us strong; but sometimes it is letting go."

truth
it is hard to tell the truth because we are uncertain of how the receiver will interpret our honesty. That is a scary thought.
» kkama67 on 2006-11-20 12:18:59

I never tried to make you feel bad for the choices you made
all I can really be sure of is the way I feel...and like you said...."No one knows how much anyone loves me except themselves"....knowing this...I can make the statement that I've made in the past...the most important thing that I want you to realize though...and the thing that I think you are missing is....I want you to be happy....and if I'm not the person who can bring you that happiness....then so be it....I just always thought I could be...that's all I ever was trying to say
» Rip-Tide-Prophecy on 2006-11-20 12:54:40

indeed
Lady I know how that emotional rollercoaster goes and there are some days like this past week that I felt such out of touch with myself and those I care about that I wasn't sure I felt the same way about so many things that just a day before I had felt so sure about... I guess that is what being intuitive, self critical and conscientous does to you. I don't have any answers to myself nor to you, but just that I know what it feels like and know that in some way you will make your decisions based upon what you feel at the time, and that is all you can ask of yourself. Another good quote is: "Things don't change, we change." and we change because our perceptions change, our mentality changes and our goals change. best wishes of course and if you ever figure out why we are like we are, let me know :)
» xXxshegzxXx on 2006-11-20 01:11:16

"don't settle for the love you think you deserve".
I, myself, try to show the person I love how much I really do care every second I'm with them. This way, they know they're loved and won't stray too far.
"Time may change me, but you can't change time". Meaning, I go through changes and my heart goes through changes, don't try to go back to how it felt because it's not possible unless the feelings are always with you.
it's better to let people know your true feelings on everything so you don't lead them on, so they can work to find new happiness in their lives. You may not have to live their lives, so you think "let them figure it out on their own". but sometimes they're part of your lives and the only way they can figure it out on their own and move on is if you give them a push.
"don't settle for the love you think you deserve".
» ThisCharmingMan on 2006-11-20 07:16:16

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