i believe one of the worst things in the world is to have to talk to a group of 30 college students right after you broke down in tears. Jamie hugged me and told me everything was going to be okay, i splashed cold water on my face and walked out the door.
People asked if i was okay...i said i was sick. it's easy to see who really cares and who just asks if you are okay because they feel like they have to. So with a low voice and blurry eyes i went over the meeting info at lighting speed. had them fill out what they needed and let them go.
i was not so good at lying when it came to some people. when i walked in my room tommy had left me a note telling me everything would be okay and to remember i am beautiful. it made me smile.
i hate to cry.
i hate to have ppl see me cry.
i hate that i cried.

cyring used to not be something I did ever... but then because of things that happened in life something in my released and I have since been crying regularly..sometimes by a movie, sometimes because I am just thinking or talking and sometimes for no reason at all, jsut because I need to. I used to hate the fact that I cried as well, and then i realized that the things i cry about are the things that mean enough to me to cry for... I cry because I am scared, I am hopeful, I can connect, or because there just aren't any words. I wish I could've been there for ya, we all need a good cry, or a few, or many, depending on the situation
» xXxshegzxXx on 2006-11-15 02:05:32

there are times when people talk about me behind my back, or when i fall and scrape my knee or when someone i used to care about makes some rude comments, or when i'm called names. i don't care much for the people or scraping my knee, but it still makes me cry. for whatever your reasons were, i hope they were good ones and not just because someone pushes more things on you that you don't believe in the first place.. like the damn pro-lifers. i hope that you'll be fine in time and that you can take care of yourself. you can push through the clouds to see the sun. it's just hard to move clouds around. don't hate yourself for crying, don't hate to cry, and don't be ashamed that people saw you cry, but don't cry for the wrong reasons. sometiems you've got to be stone cold and keep your chin up or people may get the wrong ideas from your tears.
keep pushing those clouds kid, sunny days are beyond.
» ThisCharmingMan on 2006-11-15 03:13:16

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