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When Jessica and I first met we clicked so much. We were so different. She went to church, came from a bit of money, never had done anything, never had a boyfriend, only wore jeans and baggy tee shirts. Me on the other hand came from no money, had no religion, always had a guy around, wore "punk" clothing, band shirts, bondage pants, mini skirts, all this. Listened to all types of punk, heavy metal, ska, rock, everything her mom disapproved of.
We became good friends in 8th grade and best friends in 9th grade. In high school we were inseperable. We loved each other and were best friends. We hung out all the time and things were so cool. Then our junior year I noticed some change in Jessica. I had noticed her slowly changing, but now it was full force.
She had began to dye her hair all the time [just like me esp. the same shade of blue i always dyed mine], she began to only shop at hot topic [where i got most of my clothes from], she'd find a cool underground band I'd really like then totally tell everyone about them and act like she herself had just discovered the best band out there, she always tried to flirt with my guy friends, she was always there, not like normal best friends ut ALWAYS, like at the house she would follow me even if i took one step. It was now getting annoying that she wanted to be just like me. I mean she of course had traits I disliked, but all friends dislike something about each other. At school she even began signing up for the same classes I did, tried to steal my friends as in she'd try and make friends with them then pull this "You're my real best friend" thing. It was getting annoying so I confronted her about it and all she did was cry.
So I had a talk with her mom b/c we often felt Jessica was overly clingy and it usually hurt her pretty badly. Like when her bf of two years dumped her and when her crush got a girlfriend and so forth and that helped a bit cause she made Jessica start shopping at other stores so she couldn't buy the exact same clothes as me.
So then Jessica comes to school one day with my hairstyle. I have always wore my hair in pigtails for as long as I can remember and suddenly that's all she did. Then suddenly she started mismatching her shoe laces like I did. Started covering her notebooks in band CD covers like I did, started putting X's over her I's instead of dots, like I did. She started wearing black nail polish and black eyeliner like I did, but it looked so bad cause she can't do makeup. It was so out of control so I yelled at her, just broke lose, told her to be her own person or I wasn't going to be her friend cause I liked being me cause there was no one else like me, but with her around it was like I had a little clone at all times.
Well, by our senior year it had cleared up and things were good. Now, a mere year later its back, only she now has this whole "I'm so much better that you" act going on, and I am not in anyway trying to be mean, rude, stuck up, selfish, or full of myself. But she is a bit chunky I mean I weight 155 and that's a size 10, but she's a size 16 at like 180 and she's shorter than me and she has an attractive face and body to, but she wears clothes I couldn't fit into and it makes her so ... unattractive. But she gives me this vide like "Everyone thinks I'm so much hotter than you" and then complains that she can't get a b.f
She was bad when I left, but when she came to visit me it was like permanent PMS. She was a bitch. Like Mike was here the second day she was here and the last day she was here out of the whole week she was here. the rest of the time he was out of town for work. But she was a bitch when he was here. She kept going "don't you have somewhere to be?" "What time are you leaving?" And I'm like "He's spending the night so he can take us to the station to drop you off in the morning" and she was like "Can he do that?" As if I'd let him stay without asking my rents. No mom and dad don't know I'm going to hide him!?! Then she was all like "You two are sooo perfect for one another I so approve" then she'd turn around and be like "you're only 18 to get attached or act like he's the only one. it'll never last." Then she'd come right back around and be like "You two are meant to be together forever. Perfect!"
Then she deleted this letter I had been typing to him forever. Since the day we met and it pissed me off. Cause it was just in the trash can on my computer it was gone as in it was no accident.
I dunno. I'm kinda glad now that I moved and I get a fresh start cause things there weren't good with many ppl.. Bill and I were fighting and hating one another Andy and I were causing drama between not only ourselves but Bill and us. *sighs* Thank God I have Mike here to help me out now.