Well, while everyone is out at Red Robbins, I'm sitting at home annoyed with my mom. Oh well, shes kool, she bugs the crap out of me sometimes, but shes a awesome mom. This play has put allot of stress on everyone, and everyone(well at least me) at alittle snappy. Now that opening night is out of the way it should get better. When the play is all over everyone will be alot more relaxed.

But, I don't think its only the play, I think that everyone is starting to get kinda annoyed with everyone. I dunno, maybe its just me, or maybe everyone is just annoyed by me. But no one seems as close as we used to be. We're falling apart.
I know alot of it is my fault, I've been getting to people lately, heck, I've been getting to myself lately(then agian, thats usual). I'm scaring myself. I apperantly have always been kinda 'moody', which I don't understand nor enjoy. But lately I've seemed to be worse. I'm not as social as I used to be. I've been getting quiter and quiter.

I don't know what I have to do to fix myself. I seem like I'm always hurting people, always annoying people, always depressed, thinking, or somethings wrong. I guess I'll just have to control my emotions. Not let my temper get to me. And start working on myself image again.

Another bad habit I've seemed to form is played around with people and slamming them. People wind up taking me serously and getting hurt. So I'm going to try and fix that. I tend to do it most when I'm upset, I wind up taking it out on people...with is horrible and I beat myself for.

Obviously I have alot of problems to work out. And hopefully I can get them all taken care of and be able to be a good friend again. I want to be there for my friends (the ones I haven't run off yet) the way I should and that way I want to be. I'm going to break out of my box again, get my self respect back, be the kool christain guy I was at the beggining of the year. All of this, with God's help. One baby step at a time.

Well, this is just some stuff thats floating around in my head, alot of stuff that I've been thinking about.
Hopefully I haven't bored you or run you off with my endless ramblings.

I love ya all,
~Kevin~

P.S. Hopefully it won't be another month till I update again...sorry about that.

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it isnt hard to get rid of that attitude. all you have to do is stop thinking. you say you want to be the kool christian guy, well to do that you have to have faith in god and lay down your worries before him and forget all your troubles...which also solves your problem.!!! love ya kevin!!! by the way, a few days ago you said i needed an attitude check, then i said zack needed one, and he laughed. do you believe me when i asy he needs one? just out of curiosity, how well do you know your freinds?
» NerdyNiteLite752 on 2004-06-06 05:09:38

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Zack? Yeah, he needs attitude check. And to answer your other question, not as well as I'd like to.
» Dorkman on 2004-06-07 12:15:48

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