I can no longer use the excuse that I have no affect on people, because I know I do. After everything I have been through, I am still the person that I was in the past. And that right there is terribly sad. The only difference now is that I affect people. It makes me depressed to think that so little people really do affect me. Even the shit with him last night, it didn't really affect me. I realized something. Things that I don't like, do not exist. Today at school, I felt different. I went back to my old ways today. The way I acted yesterday was me in the past. I'm beginning to forget how to feel again. I can name one person that has changed me, who has affected me, made me a better person permanently. Everyone else, they affect me for a period of a time in my life, and when they are gone I go back to the person that I use to be. It might as well not have happened. It makes me sad to think that but it's the truth. I've come to the conclusion that I don't want to affect people anymore unless they affect me as well. Because those few that I do affect and who do not affect me, will end up getting hurt instead of helped.

Priscilla.
I love you. Thank you so much for your trust and kindness. You will always remain in my heart. You're loyalty and honesty is something that very few people possess. I thank you for being the best friend anyone could ever have. I'm grateful, more then grateful, that you allowed me to see you. That you let me in. It's the greatest gift that anyone has ever given me. Your genuine love has touched me in more ways then you could ever imagine. If I could express my gratitude in words, I would, but this goes beyond words, beyond actions, and even beyond expression. Thank you.

-Jess

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