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Friends make me happy.

I told Brandi about Mistress and I. You know, I still don't quite understand our relationship. Are we friends? I don't even know. I haven't had a real conversation with her in ages. And yet, I tell her a lot of shit that most people don't know about. It's just easy to talk to her. I need to hang out with her one day. I just like talking to her. Even if she can be a real bitch. Haha. But it's all good. Oh, I like getting high with her too. She's like the only person I like getting high with the exception of Priscilla. But I don't get high, so that's out. I miss her innocence actually. She's changed so much. She looks so different. You can tell she's taking more shit then just weed. It makes me sad. I had a chance of helping her but I didn't. I wish I could help her now, but I can't. It's strange, I still have some fond feelings for her. Even though sometimes we can really piss each other off. But it seems, we always end up being okay. Strange, very strange. And there isn't really any bad vibes either. I think it's because we both know too much about each other. Even though we don't speak that often and only see each other for a few seconds, there's a strange little connection, something left unsaid. Something we share with just silence. And that's why we still talk. Oh yeah. But she's someone I can't trust. And someone I can't get too close to.

I've realized something. The only person I've ever told any secrets to was to Priscilla. And I realized I don't have that many secrets. Is that a bad thing? Even the deep personal shit that I tell some people, if they were to leak it to other people, it wouldn't really bother me. But then, I only tell people shit after I have it all figured out, after it has passed. Priscilla was the only person that I told things to when they were actually going on.

Okay, so I had to get Brandi out of my system. That felt good. I love writing man. It helps so fucking much. It's great. When there's no one to listen, the other best method is to write and write to your hearts content!

One more subject to talk about. But that's for tomorrow cause it'll be long long long.