Mark's entry on his Xanga made me sad, it only reminded me of Priscilla again. Speaking about Priscilla, I had a dream about her and her family last night. And what's really strange is I've had dreams of being close to Priscilla's mom before. Sometimes it was a little too close for my own comfort. But yeah, anyways, this was a "normal" closeness but weird nonetheless. So I was somewhere, I don't remember where, but all of a sudden Priscilla's whole family drives by in their camery and Priscilla's dad was asking me if I wanted a lift. I was like..."Uhhh, aren't yall mad at me?" But I said yes. I opened the door and Priscilla's mom was sitting in the back seat, Chanel was sitting in the front, and Priscilla was sitting in the middle looking all uncomfortable and awkward and shit because that was the first day since the incident that we have even seen each other. Asa was in the car..but I don't remember where. I think he was sitting up front with Chanel. In any case, so Priscilla's dad started driving and me and Priscilla's mom starts getting into an argument about skipping school and shit. All of a sudden, it's Priscilla's mom driving the car and she takes me back to the place where I got picked up. And Priscilla's dad was like, "No, you can't do this, I promised I would take her home already." And Priscilla's mom was like, "So what?" Blah blah blah. And then I started talking really calmly to Priscilla's mom, and I started discussing with her some of my concerns about her methods of "teaching" her children and shit. When we started discussing that and she stopped playing the blaming game, we were not arguing. We were actually getting along just fine and bonding and shit. I mean, I could still feel she was a bit upset with me, but she started to understand me more and I her, and we just started to get along a little better. And then I woke up. Now, I have no idea what on earth this dream means. Man, I remember having a dream with me and her on Priscilla's bed and we were laying next to each other like we were friends or some shit. It was fucking weird. Maybe it means one day in the future Priscilla's mom and I will come to an understanding after we vent our anger out on each other. I don't know. It's disturbing that I don't understand what this dream means.

I'm depressed.

And I'm worried that I may not be pleasing Mistress. Her pupils didn't dialate like they did yesterday.

I curse Priscilla for teaching me about pupils dialating. Now I have all night to fret over the matter. Nah, actually, it's a good thing to know.

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