I'm feeling pretty bad as I know I am going to get my period tomorrow or sometime soon, which always leads me to feel bad. Today I had to force myself to get out of my nice warm bed and work on the grant I have due next Friday as well as the housing application which is due Monday, when I'm going to hand it in. I hope they accept me, I really do because presently I'm spending $400 a month using the paratransit service. If I lived in Northampton, which is more centrally located to what I do, I would be able to merely take the bus. Bus passes cost $20 if you are disabled. Way better economic deal. Also, Northampton is more fun.

Most of my PCA's say they'll be able to stay with me so I shouldn't have a problem there. Also, people who used to work for me but stopped because they lived too far away and gas prices are too insane would come back to work for me. People would be able to stop by and visit me much more easily. I'm so excited. I'll cry, I swear, if they don't pick me. I've worked so hard. I've had a job for a year, I'm busily applying to various writer's grants, I'm definitely moving up in the world. Living in Belchertown is not helping me achieve that goal, though. As much as I like my little town, it is time for me to move on. It's not like I won't ever come here again. Northampton is only 45 minutes away, if that. It's just that my life will improve. And isn't that the goal of everyone? To have every year be better than the one before?

I'm almost through with the grant stuff although I have to wait on an e-mail from the application people and finish a book to complete the last essay. I'll definitely be done by Friday, the deadline, and hopefully Thursday so I'm not rushing around. Why do I always wait until the last minute to finish important things? I don't know but I don't seem to be able to write when I have days and days to do it. God knows I've tried. I guess I'm a kind of last minute producer. Well, at least I produce somehow.

Categories: working [t], PMS [t], difficulties [t]

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