mood: sick
*sigh* I'm really dreading school because its going to be awkward being around Jess and Edith. I'm going to feel bad if i hang out with one of them more than the other, and i don't want it to seem like i'm taking sides. Oh, what the hell, i just shouldn't worry and just pretend i'm ignorant. I have a feeling that Edith is going to hang with Emily like a clotheshanger (hehe, i just felt like saying something corny) and Jess is going to hang around me more, i think. She's pretty pissed that i didn't want to go to some concert tonight, but i really didn't feel like going. She said that going will make me feel better and all, but what irked me was that it seemed like she cared more about just going there, for her own fun. I'm really socially challenged and add that to feeling sick....i would probably throw up on everybody.

I took this test to determain if i have social anxiety disorder, and it came out positive. I always feel like people are judging me or talking about me. I also avoid speaking to some people for fear of embarassment. I made an appointment to see my doctor so i can get a perscription for Paxil or Zoloft.

Update on the CA moving issue...its like a 90 percent chance that i'm moving. My parents said that regarless of us buying the restaurant of not, we're still moving. They don't want to spend the rest of thier lives in a small town and isolated from their relatives and family. If we don't buy the restaurant, they want me to move to San Diego ahead of them so i can get in-state tuition and live with my brother until they move there later. Now that i've put a good amount of thought into it, i think moving will be best for me. Theres not much for me here, and theres going to be so much more oppertunities in Cali. I'll have so much more fun there cause theres actually things to do, people to see, places to go...not like boring Wilmington.

*crying*
that's really sad. i didn't mean for it to come out that way, i just wanted us to hang out together, i swear! me and edith are supposedly getting along now, after i e-mailed her and she e-mailed me. so that makes me _____ happier? i don't know, because now i'm just super stressed about you moving away..again. <3 jess p.s. i joined the site and started making my website and all and then decided that i don't like this journal site. it's too complicated for me, especially since i already have a working journal. but i'll stay a member just to comment in yours, okay? besides, the only template i even considered was, you guessed it, the one you have! so that wouldn't be very original if we both had the same-looking website, huh? but kudos on yours, this is super-cool. LOVE
» iwannaoompa on 2004-03-13 11:28:56

hm...
wow.. i hope u feel better... but neways... welcome to nutang...
» ChickensInATree on 2004-03-13 06:00:13

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