maybe i should update this thinggie....i haven't in over a week...oh well...i worked a 39 hour week this past week.....hell yes..means a nice hefty paycheck...most of it's going in my bank account though, because i hate to travel with cash on hand...and since i ammmm traveling back home on thursday night....i can't wait!! i'm so effin excited! i might pick jackie up from school friday afternoon so i can see some of my old friends that i haven't saw in forever...idk yet...then i'm definatly going shopping up in elmira..i haven't been up there in over 2 months...i gotta get stuff to make the centerpieces for dad's wedding on saturday...and then jackie can help me make them :) haha..i'm so nice...i might wanna go out to dinner, depending on how i feel from traveling the day before...should be fine though....i hope....since im farther along in this journey now....i hope traveling won't be too rough on me....i have a bump..it's so cute..i love to just put my hand on it and imagine the baby moving...i made jim feel it the other night..he couldn't really feel it, but he didn't know what he was feeling for...he's never really pushed a girls stomach i guess....haha...but i can feel it..it's a hard little bump....easy to hide still with a oversized workshirt and leaving my pants unbuttoned..i might go shopping for some clothes while up there....but probably not, why pay sales tax in new york when i don't have to here in pa!! unless they have something up there that they don't have here...like the maternity section at old navy :D ...i have the biggest cravining for italian or french bread....just something with a crunchy outside and soft bread-y inside...i've had it since yesterday morning, and i haven't been able to get to the store to get it :( i'll get it tommorrow....i still don't get sick as much now..thank god...i get sick maybe once a day....usually in the morning before work, but i'm still nauseous all day....it's making my tongue hurt....damn stomach acid...oh well, as long as i throw up before or after the ceremony on saturday, i should be fine :P i guess they're having a private ceremony, and then an open reception...idk if a lot of people will be there, he hasn't gotten many rsvp's as of ....thursday when i called...idk..i hope it turns out nice..i guess my *gulp* sister and i are carrying boquets of roses and jim's gonna wear a rose bouttineere...he's gonna be so cute...i'm gonna get tons of pictures and post some of them....i think i might get my hair done for the occasion..not sure though...i guess there's not gonna be a processional either....fine by me..i don't want people seeing me walking up the aisle, and then tripping or something..haha...but i thought i'd do that at graduation..and i was fine :P it's so weird...i'm gonna have a sister now...and nephews...one of which is adorable cuz he's like 2 or 3...and the others...are still in high school...i'm not mentioning names cuz ...they don't have the best reputation out there...and i don't want that to bring me down at all...they're nice...but ...i never really associated with that crowd...guarantee they're not watching mah baby when s/he's born...i don't want my daughter or son growing up around that stuffs....

anyhoo...i wrote another entry last night in my pregnancy journal that i've started for when the baby's born...i hate always writing "you" in it, instead of a name..but i guess that's what happens when you can't find out the sex until month 5 or 6.....i realized this morning i'm already about 2 1/2 months into my pregnancy..it's kind of exciting..it's going fast...and dragging at points too..when i don't think the nausea will end, ever......my appointment's tomorrow...wish me luck on that, cuz i'm scared as hell that i'm going to find out my baby's not healthy because i haven't been able to eat right lately....or that s/he's going to have a mental retardation due to something abnormal..i'm just so scared to find out that something could be wrong with my precious one....because a week after i found out, i thought i lost the baby because i was bleeding...(the way you would in a miscarriage...the ''c'' word) and i was so scared, but i stopped bleeding that night, and i've been fine since..no blood, normal sickness and still getting bigger....so i don't know...i wanted to get it checked out, but i was scared....so now i'm even more scared that something could be dreadfully wrong cuz i was stupid and didn't get checked out...i don't know..i'm going to bring a tape, and the PDA to record the heartbeat and to get a copy of the ultrasound if possible...i'm excited for that..if i don't get to heart the heartbeat or see the baby, i'll be realllllly bummed...but i'm sure they'll at least let me see it because i'm so scared, and i'm sure they'll want to see it too to make sure it's developing properly, since this is my first visit, and i'm around 11-12 weeks (or more) along...plus i get to find out my due date...yippie!! no more ....uhh, i think i'm due in may....i'll have an actual date to rely on :) woohoo!! anyway, i'm out..i'm hungry, and i gotta pee...again...

i love you james thomas zdziebkowski :)


heyyyy..it's how i feel every day :) finally, a smiley for me :D



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everything will be fine. Don't worry yourself over it. I wish you the best of luck and have a good Halloween.
» Princess_00 on 2005-10-30 03:24:23

hahaha
oh yeah! haha they are sooo delish... i dont like rupert grints hair quite so long though... it makes him look like a girl. but danniel is a hotty.
haha we were just talking about them last night at a party. =D
hannah
» mix_tapex3emotions on 2005-10-31 12:05:35

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