okay..i'm sure by now you've read jackie's entry on abortion..the reason we got into that topic last night when we were talking is because...jim's brother's fiance..is pregnant, and she's scheduled her abortion for next thursday....meaning, she's killing my little neice or nephew...that shit doesn't fly with me at all...that's my fucking family, and my little baby neice or nephew...and she doesn't understand how bad that's gonna hurt me...david (jim's bro) is paying for her to have it done too...she claims she doesn't want to, but it's the only way out of it....bullshit it is....give the baby up for adoption...give it to jim and i to raise..i already told her and dave that i'd take care of the child!! they're both afraid that they won't be able to go out and party and get drunk...and yeah, jim's parents would be upset, but i'm sure they wouldn't make her abort the child...it just hurts me so bad inside to know that my lil baby neice or nephew is gonna be killed....just...murdered out of cold blood!! David is 27, keirstin is 21..yeah, she's young, but david's not..he needs to grow up..and i know they'll regret it once she has the abortion...it hurts so bad...i cried myself to sleep last night...she'd talked about getting an abortion before, but she never made an appointment..i was upset before...so upset i called my dad just to talk to him about it..and he told me to try to talk her out of it..and i have..but i guess it didn't work, b/c next thursday, they're going to some clinic in new york...i just want to fight for my little neice or nephew to live..but i guess i lost..i'm a failure as an aunt...i can't save their life...i was so upset that i barely even talked to jim when he woke me up before he had to work....he knew something was wrong, and i just told him i wanted to talk to him later....and he's worried that it's something about me, even though i reassured him i'm fine....which i am, except for the fact that our neice or nephew's gonna be killed thursday...i don't know..maybe i'm selfish to want tos save the baby's life...but i mean, wouldn't you?? if it's gonna be your family, wouldn't you want to fight for their right to live??


on other notes...yesterday..went and picked up my paycheck....149.05...not too bad i guess....if they didn't take taxes out i'd have like 170something....but..whatever.....then we went to mercy hospital....parked in the garage thinggie on level 5...took a scungy elevator down...and got a lil lost in the hospital trying to find the er..but we did..they took my name and info and stuff and told me to wait..i waited for maybe 5 minutes, and they came for me...so they did a throat culture....the instant strep came back negative..but they'll call me with results if it is....i don't think it is..but we'll get to that later...they had me change into a lil hospital gown thing (so embarassing..) and then they listened to my lungs and checked my throat, had me sign a few forms and wrote me a perscription and sent me on my merry way...so we went to eckards to get my perscription filled, put my film in and stuff...and i got some chloraseptic....which feels soo nice on my throat...for about 4 minutes, then it fades :( but anyway..then i went and put my laundry in, we went to mcdonalds cuz i was craving it for some sick strange reason...and then we went grocery shopping...picked up my clothes, got my film and came home..my graduation pictures came out NIIIICE....i like 'em ....but...after we ate dinner last night...(donna roasted a turkey on the grill....made stuffing ....let me make the mashed potatoes....) it was reallllllllly good...but anyway..after dinner, my throat barely hurt...i think it was the hot food that helped...and then i called my dad...talked to him for an hour....then...went to bed..and now that i've woken up..my throat doesn't hurt NEARLY as much as it did yesterday...and the swelling's gone down a LOT...so hopefully i'm all better and can go to work tomorrow.......

but i just wanted to comment on how i was doin..that i'm not gonna die (haha..thanks zero_jak) and how i'm so upset that i failed as an aunt and my baby neice or nephew's gonna die:(

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you didn't fail completely as an aunt .. just remmy the baby could hear you.. and it knew that you were fighting for his or her right to live. and the baby prolly greatly appreciates it.
» oXjackielynnXo on 2005-08-11 11:31:08

liking the lay out by the way :). the spongedude rocks. hehe
» oXjackielynnXo on 2005-08-11 11:32:51

haha sorry that my new lay out has vulgar language.. i think it rocks. only if i could figure out how to change the background color to black.. i think it would look a lot better.. ya know what I mean!? 4 more days my Idol.. heck yes!! :). and then we can shizzle bizzle again izzle. lol.
» oXjackielynnXo on 2005-08-11 11:35:53

O.o damn..... yea Jackielynn is completely right I coukl not agree with her 1st comment more! That's not being shefish at all! Unfourantely, as bad as it sounds, the final decsion rests with her, b/c U can't go in her stomach and bear the baby for her or do anything 2 phycially stop her from having the abortion, like traping her in the house and making her miss her appointment... I dunno if U would want 2 take it that far...... It seems like U did all U could, so be glad that U tried 2 make a difference!!! i'm sorry U could not do more:-)
» CPKviperpheonix on 2005-08-11 12:10:23

yea, and that's what I figured., that is way 2 expensive 2 do. Its not your fault that U can't stop it, and don't have the money or resources to transfer it, I'm just sorry U have 2 deal with this ;-( (BTW) that was supposed 2 be a sad face in that last entry)
» CPKviperpheonix on 2005-08-11 12:20:32

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