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So, a lot has happened in the past few days to everyone. Here's my little end of everything....

Super Bowl Sunday, It was OK, I slept in after being with Rob until 1 am (And some GREAT cappichino). But besides that....I found out that one of my close Childhood friends died sometime during the weekend (Hey, Mom's ex-fiancee is good for something) from a Heroin overdose. I'm now at the greiving stage in that, so almost everything brings me to tears right now. I'm hoping to be able to go to the funeral, but it's a 12 hour drive each way, and no one wants me going alone. But I'll be accomplishing a lot by going. I'll be able to see Dad's and Grandpa's graves (I've been wanting to do that for awhile). I'll also get to see my best friend of 13 years, so that's totally exciting. (That's where I'll be staying if I go, which is why I won't be able to take anyone with me). But it totally sux why I'm going. He'll at least be able to be with his sister again (He has always blamed himself for her death) She died of a brain tumor when she was like 8. I remember being there to cosole him during the whole funeral, and even afterwords. I'm upset about his death mainly because it was TOTALLY preventable. If his parents would have made him go into rehab, then they wouldn't be having to bury their only child, of 22 years of age. DON'T DO DRUGS!!!!! Because it only brings grief to everyone. But also, if they wouldn't of let him hang out with the person who introduced him to drugs to begin with, then that would have helped prevent it too. ::sigh:: It's really hard to go through everything right now, It's like I'm going through motions, and that I'm not myself. I just keep on going back to the last time I even saw him, I never got to tell him good bye or that I loved him or anything like that, and now I can't. I mean I'm sure he knew, but do you really know? I keep on going back to the movie Butterfly Effect. If anyone could prevent the one event from happening, then what could have changed? The one event that he blamed EVERYTHING on....::sigh:: I hope the person who was with him rots in Jail, because I'm going to seriously hurt him if I EVER see him.......

On another note, Robert's having surgury tomorrow on a sist or something (He's been completely doped up, so I haven't really gotten to talk to him) so that means that I'm dying to even talk to him. So you KNOW I can't wait to see him....it's been almost two weeks (again!) ::sigh:: I don't know if I can handle this...he says we'll see more of each other after this, well, I hope it's true. Because this once a week crap sux totally, but I'll deal with it until it can be more. Sooo....I'm trying to get everything here at the house ready for VALENTINE'S DAY!!!!!!!!!!! WHOO HOO!!!!!!!!!!!! Ok, I'm outie!