I know the answer to the problem, its right in front of my face, I can barely see it!!!! What I have been trying to say is that people are so FAKE!!!!! And that makes me SICK!!!!! First of all, no one is F%$#ing perfect, why do they pretend to be, why do people go out of their way to make their lives seem one way when its really not, they waste their precious time and effort putting on a mask and creating this elaborate show for people (who don’t even care)!!! And then become so angry and take it out on their loved ones simply because its tiring to do so. What the fuck is that?

Not to mention my fiancés family is just like this and so is mine! Get this, his father and mother don’t spend a lot of time together and of course leaving their other 4 children out of everything, their two youngest son play football, and they hated taking them to practice, going to their games, and participating as team parents, their dad was suppose to take them, but he always made his wife go ( she is a stay at home mom and maybe worked her ass off, but not really) while he sat on his ass and watched T.V. (see, he doesn’t have to leave home to go and work, nor did he have to work at all, but the man still brings home money) all they do is complain, complain, and complain!!!

When they have to make an appearance somewhere, they bring along everyone and dread every second of it!!! (just to pretend like they are one big *FAKE* happy family….. When visitors come they are yelling at everyone insulting each other to get the house clean!!!! ( they live in a really nice house and big too) but rarely clean it because of the size!!!! I say all this because I am a really honest person, I say things how I feel, and if I don’t agree with some one, I always let them know, I don’t hide things, I enjoy expressing myself….

Well this family hates me, and they say it to Garret every single day, I have never, once, been dishonest( “and so here is a contradiction” except when Garret asked me too) so when I am around they put on that mask and pretend they like me, I hate that so very much!!! I want to confront her about it, but he tells me I shouldn’t since they wouldn’t care anyway and anything I say wont get through to their brain.

The other day I was at the golfing range that Garrett’s father recently purchased with his friend, so that makes him only 50% owner, but seeing as though his friend already owns three other businesses, and is no joke, a millionaire ( he knows what he is doing) his father wants to jack up the prices and charge tax, when these customers never had to do it because of the prior owner. He is so selfish and money hungry, that now him and his friend are butting heads!!!! I can go on forever about this, I just need to let it go!!! But I cant because that’s just not me, there is always a solution, no matter how difficult it may be!! ……..

The thing about the golfing range IS pretty awful, I agree. :/
» randomjunk on 2006-11-12 04:02:41

Eh. Fake people usually get their start in highschool (or sometimes earlier) and they very rarely grow out of it.
» Praetorian on 2006-11-12 07:42:31

hmm
although im only 17 and ur much older than i am, but i feel comfortable talking to you. about ur fiance's family's attitude towards you , trust me, there are many out there like that too, my friend's older sister has a bf.. and her parents hate him.. even my family itself.. my grandma (dad's side) treates my mum like shit... i guess its something you may have to put up with.. and if ur finace loves you enough and you love him enough and hang in till the end, you'll still be happy. just remember, lol you'll be married to him, not his family. yeh ur going to have to accept his family too, but u know.. not like ur living with them.. u know what you shoudl do back.. put a mask on and give them that same attitude, im not saying be a bitch and treate them the way they treat you, but seriously, if you cant stand it.. then dont?

as for my issue, you know what, you helped me think straight, thigns are changing.. weirdly though... my bf said to me.. he still loves me and needs me.. he still reads the letters i used to write him and all.. we're both really important to one another. in the past, we're kind of been eachother, when one was unhappy, so was the other. we're coming to a compromise, we know that if you love one enough, you're willing to do anything for them. i can feel hes starting to understand that im a girl and i cant help some of my feelings, because a girl is a girl and i cant change the fact that im am girl and think like a girl. things are starting to get a little better.. its hard too of course after everything thats happened, but im hanging in there too, so dont you give up, espeically because you and ur fiance's relationship is obviously so much better than the one im in. theres always a way to work things out, and always believe in miracles. one day, his family will accept you and like you too.
» ruiyan on 2006-11-13 02:05:03

things do get better
thanks heaps for ur comfort and suggestions, i must admit, you're pretty blunt and simply want to GET TO THE POINT. no loops. its a good thing, easy to understand =] ...well like i said.. my bf and i are getting better... just that, because so much has happened, and im emotionally weaker, sometimes i feel insecure, but i like you said, things WILL get better, so yeh. like i said, im hanging in there. if i have any more problems, i'll talk to you about it.

i didnt know you were 22, not much older than me, but still.. a good person to turn to for advice since u have the experience and ur childhood was just as hell like as mine, if not worse. i should return the love my bf once gave me right, i mean ... treat ppl the way u want to be treated? i believe that one day, both our lives will be the way we want it, things will work out.
» ruiyan on 2006-11-14 03:40:40

Off Topic
I believe that is the coolest picture I've seen in quite awhile.

Just thought I'd let you know.

and g'luck wth the whole 'fake' it. I've recently come to the conclusion that I've been living behind a mask of....I don't even know...and I didn't even know it. Now i'm trying to live without it and it's freaking me out.

I hope the situation lets us. It's not fair that they don't get to know you before making judgments against you.
» Helena on 2006-11-28 01:54:39

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