So what is going on today? What went on yesterday? and what will probably go on tomorrow? Does it really matter? I mean, does it? It does to me! why shouldn't it? I have noticed that for some reason people (and I’m not saying that all people are like this) but just to generalize on the whole idea, those around me seem as though they walk as if they are almost zombie like, to elaborate a little bit more, its like they have this blindfold and cant see past what they have only been taught to do, think, or say. For instance, my fiancé and I have been looking at BMWs on the internet and thought that they were of course, really nice cars, not because they are BMWs, but because of the quality of the car. So we decided to go and take an actual look at the cars, and when we got there we were approached by a salesman and the first words out of his mouth were "How close are you to buying a car"? We said, "we are in the process of saving money, to make a down pay...... and without finishing my sentence he immediately became uninterested in us as people and providing us with good customer service. I asked if we could look at some cars and his response was you'll have to get the number and bring it in to me so I can get a key, walked away and left us there as if we were nobody. OK, his main goal is to sell cars, but in order for people to buy cars, they have to look at them first, why doesn’t anybody care about our needs just as much as we are expected to care about others. People are just rude!!! Another example is people are too judgmental. They care more about what you are wearing, where you live, what you drive etc... this has been an on going battle and is becoming worse everyday, now that it is affecting young kids at school, (and for that reason I believe all students must wear uniforms until they understand that we are all human beings) or why don’t the parents become more involved in teaching their children just a little bit about humanity, Imp not trying to blame anybody, just looking for solutions!!! You know that if it wasn’t this way, and we all lend out a helping hand and said hello to those we have never even met instead of look up and down at them to judge, they would want to do or give something back when another is in need, instead of being afraid, this is a mad world we live in. I cant believe that we are even stealing from our own people and hurting our own people. I just don’t get it! How can someone take something that doesn’t belong to them, yes a lot of people do it and have always done it, Its so F/ing wrong (I’m not naive), but why, why cant that person go out and work make the money and buy it, ( the other night in my mom's friends neighborhood there were two cars that were broken into, and one of them was a brand new Chrysler 300 with 22s , the very next morning the owner was leaving for work and noticed his car was on top of bricks, ones that belong to the neighbor across the street, the following three days a woman’s car was broken into and her purse was stolen luckily she had no cash and all credit cards, those people were so angry because she only had credit cards, that they drove off throwing them at the other houses. Because of this and many more reasons, we are afraid to walk out late at night, or we have to hide our things, and or mix up our daily routines just to feel safe, this is all crazy!!! I have always felt this weight on my shoulders to help everyone even those who have hurt me, walked on me, have broken me, I have always been able to be who I am, and not allow those to affect me and take anything away or change me. Why is that? I ask myself. I sometimes become so upset with myself because I cant approach the situation and change it, I need to let it go and let it be, I just want to not care, I cant do anything about it!!! I’m ready to go to bed. I'll finish explaining this tomorrow........

life is cruel
now days, australia is meant to be what they call 'multicultural' but trust me, there are lots of ppl.. even those kids at school experience it from teachers. its so true that some ppl are rude and look at ppl in such a way. it is rather unfair, i think its because they never think about what it would be like for them to experience it since they dont exactly have to worry about it.. they take things for granted. i took something for granted too. my boyfriend. please if you ever come across my latest entry, tell what good could be done for the both of us. a fair compromise because as i can see.. you're in a relationship and hes ur fiance, which means you guys are mature about relationships. i really need help. thanks
» ruiyan on 2006-11-11 05:14:35

thanks
thanks for commenting, you know i always felt that i really was being over protective or something, but last night.. i asked a guy friend ... he's a pretty good friend with my bf.. they go to the same school and they go to school together.. this guy has a gf... they've been together for ages too.. i asked him, do you consider urself in a mature relationship? he replied, yes, then i asked him the same questions.. and he said, he knows all the guys her gf talks to and she knows all the girls he talks to.. if there is any one on the list that she didnt know, it'd be a guy, and vice versa... he then told me, he'd feel uncomfortable about it when i told him my situation. i know my bf used to really care and love me... i remember a few times.. i was unhappy... he ran 12kms to my house to see me... and then 12 kms back home. i thought.. if he could do so much for me, he'd be one who would feel uncomfrtable tooif i had spoken to guys he didnt know, hence i never spoke to any of them. i really dont know, 13 months together, we fought a lot, but we went through and confronted them together, yes i understand we're only 17, and many may think, its just a teenage relatinoship, but ive had relationships before this guy too... i know what a teenage relationship is... if this really was a teenage relationship, both of us wouldnt be so hurt, i wouldnt feel i still need him, he wouldnt want to come back.i know i shouldnt have to adapt to this , but i dont know how to get the message across to him. i dont want to have to start treating him the way he treats me, thats not what love is meant to be, its not meant to be full of revenges. he said he'd introduce the girls to me, but isnt that kind of like saying, oh if she knows them then i can talk to them? just because i start talking to them online or soemthing, it doesnt indicate that i actually know these people, right?there isnt much of a difference to not knowing them is there? please tell me what's right and wrong
» ruiyan on 2006-11-11 09:02:14

ok, here is the problem, you feel uncomfortable and im guessing so does he, you said? one thing stop defending yourself there is no need, a lot of things happen for a reason when you have no control. Love has no control, its not a switch you can just turn on or off. (apply that to all aspects or most all aspects). just let this guy be,obviously youre the one ready here, but from my "point of view" its really hard to let someone go especially if you have been together for quite some time, too see that person or even to imagine him with someone else is devastating and painfull too, my bestfriend always told me, the only way to get over the pain is to go through it, ( it can only, make you stronger and wiser). one thing you always and only need is your self..... love your self, you cant satisfy anyone untill youre self satisfied.... he showed you he loved you and now he shows you no-more.... what do you think about that? you have a big future ahead of you, and you need to get to know who you are.... keep in touch, write me back I really enjoy typing to you.
» BathroomSpider on 2006-11-12 02:37:01

Sorry, you do not have permission to comment.

If you are a member, try logging in again or accessing this page here.