my own mind is fucking me over.

maybe i should take my medications? Mm, that'd be a good idea! Be dependant
on a pill to provide my happiness. I'm a very upbeat person and stuff.. but just
recently my life has SUCKED! WHICH CELESTRIAL ASSHOLE DID I PISS OFF!?! WELL?
Answer me damnit!

SATAN DAMNIT! Just.. My God, why is life a spiral*??

* Spiral theory. Everyone has a place in life, and fortune is a spiral, spinning around
so the phrase 'what comes around goes around' is correct. sometimes it's bigger
and sometimes it's smaller, depending on the part of the spiral. It's Karma, with
shapes.


myeh..


demonickyujin: You're fucking wallowing in your own self pity

verbal slaps in the face hurt like shit.

demonickyujin: But it is a cry for help..or even just attention

twice in one night. fabulous.


WHY ARE YOU NEVER ON WHEN I NEED YOU TO BE!?! WHY ARE YOU NEVER HERE WHEN I CUT IT, BUT ONLY WHEN I COVER IT AND FAKE MY SMILES!?!!?!?!?!?!?


tonight sucked, but i smiled anyway.
every night is starting to suck. I'm looking forward to church tomorrow though...
Pastor Ann Gordon.. she's hysterically funny and a great preacher. Plus a lesbian, so
she's cool about everything. You can just go up to her and say "MY WEEK SUCKED!"
and burst into tears... she hands you a cookie, sits you down and talks to you.

Four wisest ladies in my life:

Mom- Liz's mother. I can run to Liz's house when ever I hurt and even when Liz isn't there, she makes me tea and just talks to me, holds me when I cry, smiles
when I laugh, tells me when I'm being stupid and applauds me when I fight for something I believe in. Song that she's like... Um... 9 days - When She Smiles

Mrs. P- Originally, Ms. Peterson, now Mrs. Polawsi. :-D! She's meh guidance counselor and she's great. I just skipped periods sometimes and hang out with her.
Probably not the greatest role model ('I'm not going to tell you NOT to have sex.. Just use a condom. I have them in cherry or grape if you ever need one' or 'Well, FUCK YOU!') but definately the funniest.

Miss Gordon- Reverand Ann Gordon. Great sermons, good advice and someone who actually makes me enjoy going to church! :o! whoa dude. :-D She's the type who'd think Communion Poker is funny (which you bums don't think it is!)

Siro- Probably one of the more bitchy, cynical, piss-me-off-i'll-castrate-you-with-a-screwdriver peoples I know... But she's good when i'm having a (my dad calls them 'girl moments) a need to chat about guys ( >_< it's rare, but it happens.. WHAT?!?! Dont look at me like that! For your fucktard info, I like 2 people right now... even though I hate men... yeah, it burns.). Also the only person who will bitchslap someone holding a knife against their wrist and tell them they complain too much. Also a good sewer. A terrible cook* though :-p

Siro- Here! -hands a steaming dish-
Meh- -looks at it- What is it?
Siro- Lunch
Meh- ...is it supposed to be brown and crunchy and oily?
Siro- Shut up and eat it.
Meh- .........what WAS it?
Siro- >_< carrots!
Meh- ..i refuse to believe this was once orange. or that it ever came from the
ground....
Siro- Shut up and eat it!



well.. with all that said and done and ranted and vented over, and my keyboard sticky from tears, and my head aching from when I walked into the pole on Friday.
I'm serious. I walked into a pole. I was listening to Megan Capano talk and then Ms. Staley was like "Look out!" and I turn my head to look at her (She was diagonal behind me) and I walked into the pole. It really hurts! and it's cut! And it's kinda bruised... >o
aannyywwaaayyyy....

random thing of the day-

my daddy's my hero!

~At 3:20 in the morning

BluBerryEyeLiner: -prod-
RunToTheTrenches: my rc [opurttytt me to bed
RunToTheTrenches: cecausie m dso drunk
RunToTheTrenches: whattt?
RunToTheTrenches: namec [pawel
RunToTheTrenches: drunk
RunToTheTrenches: very
RunToTheTrenches: very
RunToTheTrenches: drunk
BluBerryEyeLiner: BED
BluBerryEyeLiner: GO
RunToTheTrenches: what?
BluBerryEyeLiner: TO IT
RunToTheTrenches: lasaaaa
BluBerryEyeLiner: you're going to really regret this tomoro
RunToTheTrenches: no
RunToTheTrenches: i dont hangoiver
RunToTheTrenches: much
RunToTheTrenches: lAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
BluBerryEyeLiner: FUCK IT PAWEL
BluBerryEyeLiner: GO TO BED
RunToTheTrenches: i
RunToTheTrenches: what?
BluBerryEyeLiner: BED
RunToTheTrenches: i cant
RunToTheTrenches: what?
RunToTheTrenches: huh
RunToTheTrenches: ]la
RunToTheTrenches: alcohol
BluBerryEyeLiner: >_<
BluBerryEyeLiner: go collapse in a corner
BluBerryEyeLiner: you're gonna have a really bad hangover
BluBerryEyeLiner: and I will laugh SO hard at you
RunToTheTrenches: dont hangover
RunToTheTrenches: jusyt rootttoo much voka
BluBerryEyeLiner: feeling no pain i see
RunToTheTrenches: cant feel fucjk
RunToTheTrenches: besices numb
BluBerryEyeLiner: can you count?
RunToTheTrenches: no``
BluBerryEyeLiner: that's good
BluBerryEyeLiner: Alphabet?
RunToTheTrenches: qhealaaaa?
RunToTheTrenches: yeah
RunToTheTrenches: that
RunToTheTrenches: too
RunToTheTrenches: drunk
BluBerryEyeLiner: how old are you, Pawel?
RunToTheTrenches: iiiiiiiiii wish i could stand up
RunToTheTrenches: but i cant
RunToTheTrenches: itw s funny
BluBerryEyeLiner: hold onto the earth so you don't fall off
BluBerryEyeLiner: not that you'll be missed in your current state
RunToTheTrenches: l,.nhjg
RunToTheTrenches: yeah that
BluBerryEyeLiner: go to sleep
RunToTheTrenches: oi said something important
RunToTheTrenches: o swear
BluBerryEyeLiner: you are an idiot
RunToTheTrenches: am a dot
BluBerryEyeLiner: oh goodness
BluBerryEyeLiner: I pity any one with in 6 feet of you
BluBerryEyeLiner: PAWEL
BluBerryEyeLiner: let's try again
BluBerryEyeLiner: how OLD are you?
RunToTheTrenches: `111118
BluBerryEyeLiner: HOORAH
BluBerryEyeLiner: where are you?
RunToTheTrenches: in my errrroooom
BluBerryEyeLiner: what state are you in?
RunToTheTrenches: drunk
BluBerryEyeLiner: not in denial though
BluBerryEyeLiner: when was the last time you had an alcohol test? because you're gonna fail the next one
RunToTheTrenches: uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu]\
RunToTheTrenches: \
RunToTheTrenches: \
RunToTheTrenches: nevermnd
BluBerryEyeLiner: do you hate your liver?
BluBerryEyeLiner: really, WHY do you hate your liver?
RunToTheTrenches: because;wedont get aLON
RunToTheTrenches: G
BluBerryEyeLiner: oh celetrial being in the sky, why do you hate me
BluBerryEyeLiner: anyway
BluBerryEyeLiner: WHY are you not getting your sorry old ass into bed?
RunToTheTrenches: i dpnt hate
RunToTheTrenches: you
RunToTheTrenches: i just drunk
RunToTheTrenches: and be
RunToTheTrenches: d
RunToTheTrenches: n \bed now
RunToTheTrenches: bed now
RunToTheTrenches: night
BluBerryEyeLiner: good boy


^ Why Old People Shouldn't Get Drunk ^

drunks aren't cool.


^_~<3 and lemme a comment!!!

hi
» Robert (68.55.188.121) on 2004-09-12 10:12:31

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