I'm going to be very tired and very irritable tomorrow. Now like most of you will be able to tell the differance >o
-yawns- Fuck caffeine. It is no longer my study buddy. I think I might kill it.

Sarah- Let's have a shotglass competition! With caffeine shots! (caffeine makes this girl sleepy)
Meh- (too tired) Mm? sure...>.>
Meh- -wins with 87 shots, Sarah having only 84- I'm gonna puke....


Aren't I just so fabulously brilliant?!?! And I went into Anna's room to d/c her and she was like "Who is it!" I said it was me and she's like "what the hell!? go to bed!"...So I just kinda stumbled out of her room...>.>;; I'm gonna get in trouble tomoro, cuz Anna tattles. ><;; Most of the ways I get busted in through Anna. Sarah is too lazy to tell! :-)!


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Okay, I gotta stop with the stupid ... art. Hmm... what happened to me today... -sighs- well. there's the Jamie thing and the reasoning why I probably won't actively search for a boyfriend.

I was friends online with a guy named Jamie (17) and we talked alot. He was madly in love with this girl Megan, who is basicly playing with him and doesn't care about him much (according to Zack-kun) . one of his and my friends Zack accidentally said WE made a cute couple and then he kinda got interested in me and asked me out. I postponed answering for a while, saying I didn't know if I could trust men again. Then he asked again and I had to go, and I was gone the entire week-end. When I came back, I made a special effort to get online and say yes to him.. Then he IMs me and says he stills likes Megan and doesn't want to go out with me. I'm hurt, but I smile and wish him luck. Then, Zack IMs me and says that Megan broke up with her boyfriend and now Jamie and her are going out. And i hurt..and at first I didn't like Jamie more then a friend. But he seemed really interesting and nice and he liked me, so I started to really like him. and then.. he just.. it's like he switched it off.

And SIRO-CHAN yelled at him! Which she had no right to do, because I'm not angry with him! Just.. -shrugs softly- kinda hurt. No big deal.. But she blew it out, acting like he raped me or something.. myeh.. =/


Anyway, that's why I've decided to not always go around going "OH! Wanna go out?" -shrugs- Not really worth it. I just sit here, make friends and whatever.. Being lonley is better then being hurt, wouldn't you say? ^_^
For beauty is nothing but the beginning of terror we can just barely endure.. and we admire it so because it calmly disdains.. to destroy us.. Rainer Maria Rilke.. "The First Elegy".. I liked that book alot. Very interesting and such not..


-collapses- I am sooo damn tired. I think I might try to sleep at 3 and see what becomes of it.. Very odd dream... -shudders softly- I think dream analizing is stupid shit, but now i'm just curious..


...IN OTHER HAPPY NEWS! (man, this post does need prozac.. or something strong, like a blunt instrument to the backside of the head)

I pierced my chin! right under my lowerlip! ^^; I had a red stud in it, but it looked odd and so I changed it to a blue ball. That just looks funky.. But I can't wear the backpierce that helps hold it in, it drives me crazy, and it's impossible to eat with it in!! Makes me CRAZY!!!! >_< So yeah.. right now, it's just kinda staying in cuz it loves me. :-D Or so I hope anyway.


I shalt driveth my educaters crazy. The highest bet right now on me getting detention is 2300 by Siro. >.>; Kinda scary, neh? Oh well.. Nee-chan (Sarah) was betting me her entire box of coke and that girl's freaking addicted! She drinks 8 cokes a day! She goes through 12 packs in a days if she's stressed out!! >o
......-collapses- now I NEED caffeine.. this is gonna be one irritable kitty at school tomoro..today thing...>< I CANT THINK PROBABLY! ahhh! -twitch- I need coffee.. or even better...soda...BUT I CANT! Because soda is fattening and - -gets dragged down by Kyle-

AngelOfHell0: You on a diet? You got a nice plump ass, hun! Singin' big butts to you is fun! Asses are nice things, they should be big.

Oh yeah, THAT helped. ><; Real good stradegy, hun, rreeaall good.

-shifty eyes- this post is boring and random...

whoo hoo...


Sing, Dance, we are eternal
Let us be mad with the madness caused by drinking
'Tis the madness less infernal
Then the madness caused by thinking.-John Davidson.


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